Today (well, technically, yesterday, but who's counting?) I filled out my application for the PhD program I hope to get into, and then, as the corn bread was baking, I sat down and introspected real hard: I love what I do, but I can't go on like this indefinitely. It's not the "work," mind you, but rather my growing inability to relax before, ( Read more... )

I think of myself as someone who hates to run. It doesn't feel good, it doesn't feel natural, it doesn't feel right, and yet, I am running. Even when I was a lithe, fit, seventeen-year-old, I hated to run. Even when I signed up for track, I hated running. (I threw discuss very well, but hated the obligatory running part.) I have a vague memory of ( Read more... )

I've noted something lately: Rather than thinking of my life in approximately 600 word essay format, I've come to discursively frame it in one to two line subjectless snippets, as in "finds it unpleasant to have my hair tangled in velcro" or "is sitting in traffic wishing I hadn't ordered a large (venti! venti! venti!) coffee earlier" etc. While ( Read more... )

Every few years, I do an experiment where I wander out into the (virtual/textual) World at Large and interact with other humans. Every time that I do this, I find the same thing(s), i.e. that it takes way more time and energy than it returns, and that it just distracts me from much more important uses of my time ( Read more... )

As I posted a couple of months ago, I had some reservations about sending my oldest (five year old) daughter to school, but since she was very into the idea, and since the school was an arts school, and since it had an excellent academic rating, and since I value autonomy and her ability to steer her own direction through life, and since I had said ( Read more... )

I am feeling tired today in general, and then just had a rush of a sort of slumping, tired, exhausted, bored, head-shaking, go on to do better things-ed-ness tonight. I am tired of faulty logic. It is exhausting me, probably because I am more exposed to it now than at any time in the past twenty years. I am open to different perspectives, I ( Read more... )

I placed it face down on the grocery store check-out conveyer, hidden under the twenty-four pack of environmentally friendly toilet paper, hoping (for some reason) that no one would know I was making such a purchase. Then, when I got home, I found myself hiding it in the bathroom, always face down, this time underneath my dad's custom hot rod ( Read more... )

As predicted, we had a LOVELY time this weekend. My Hubby had the opportunity to perform with the band he plays/sings with at an outdoor festival outside of French Lick, IN, so we took the whole family (including my mom and a friend of hers) and rented a suite at a nearby resort for the weekend. I love French Lick, as does my mother - it is full ( Read more... )

For some reason, I find this whole thing amusing. The language used seems to imply that losing television is some big national tragedy, that the "unprepared" viewers are in some ambiguous danger. I would love to see ALL television signals change to static…. oh, wouldn't that be nice! I was disheartened to learn that cable and satellite viewers ( Read more... )

I'd like to say that I've been on the go since 7:30 in the morning, though that would imply that there was some sort of break prior to that, which would be inaccurate. Last night's post appeared around two-thirty in the morning; I'd like to say that I got some sleep after that, but that would likewise be inaccurate. A couldn't sleep, and by the ( Read more... )