I thought I was done with jon. but now he's pestering me again, and I feel bad being a bitch ( Read more... )

Today a kid in my brothers grade, Mike Gruber passed away. I barely knew him - I had hung out with him once a while ago - and he had an older brother in my grade. But my brother was friends with him, he sat in front of Paul in physics. And I can tell he's really shook up. We were driving around and he kept saying "I can't believe Mike's dead. I ( Read more... )

sooo my birthday's coming up soon. 16 days and I'll be 20 ( Read more... )

one of my little brothers friends called me mrs. horton yesterday and it kind of made my night. that's from back when they were 12, 5 or 6 years ago.

i hate being home ( Read more... )

sometimes I really want to tell my mom that I really don't give a shit about most of what comes out of her mouth.

I hope I remember most of this night.
its been awesome.
im gonna miss this family more than I ever thought possible.
right now I feel changed, but I know how my moods go.
everythings always better in the morning, a fresh start, a chance to go back to zero.

...and then you go back to being human.

I've been really unstable lately. I keep having "manic-depressive episodes" as my doctor calls them. So they're fiddling wit my meds, trying to get it right ( Read more... )

I feel really lost ( Read more... )

because im looking for that one great relationship of my life ( Read more... )