Zeek made a very good point the other day, I told a few people that livejournal still exists, and they should still use it, and I haven't updated with anything worthwhile in more than two(?) months. Here we go ( Read more... )

But who cares. If I don't write it down now I never will.

...Shit but now I don't know how to say it. I need more time to think about what I'm saying. And it's 2:57, I start work in 3 minutes and I haven't left yet. I already called and told them I'll be late but I'm going to get in trouble. Fuck it. I'm sorry, I'll have to write more later.

What can I remember from my dream last night? It was a pretty crazy one that's for sure...there was stuff going on before hand, I think I was in some sort of military outfit, nothing to fancy and it wasn't a super big deal like the marines or anything. I remember some faces. But the real fun starts when I am hanging out on the roof of our building ( Read more... )

So I was ready to go to bed, but decided to read some of my old entries, since I hadn't gone back further than one page. I found the update I wrote about Nick's passing, and the next song I picked to play was Jim Ward's All That We Lost, without remembering the lyrics. Once I heard the song it immediately struck a chord inside that I wasn't ready ( Read more... )

I think everyone on here knows I can be sickeningly sentimental...but I watched this movie called The Business of Birth, documentary on child birth because there was nothing on tv, and it literally blew my mind. It is about how women get lied to about pregnancy's and homebirths and midwifes, stuff I didn't know existed. I had watched a few 'eye- ( Read more... )

Well, thanks to my little cousin Gigi for reminding me this thing even existed. It's been close to two years since my last update. It is kind of funny to re-read some of this stuff. I'm way more melodramatic than I remember. I mean, I know I am a big sissy but god damn ( Read more... )

am i in a sticky situation now.

which am i supposed to listen to when niether has been right in years?

well fuck. i guess this just makes us even. maybe thats how it should be. its how you want it. maybe i was wrong to think the right thing to do was to make amends. i should of left it alone. maybe you wouldve came around eventually. on your own. maybe its all fucking pointless. like it always is ( Read more... )

i need to learn to quit wasting my time with stupid fucking shit. what was i thinking? that something would change? i am a fucking idiot! i actually tried. i was honest, i didnt hold anything back, told her everything. thinking that would help. who knows maybe there was a chance and i fucked it up, but i shouldnt even care ( Read more... )

my mind has been playing tricks on me lately. i dont know whats going on, but it doesnt feel good. the last few days ive ben bored out of my fucking mind. i go to work and i come home and sleep and i wake up and i sit around doing nothing all day. because i have nothing to do. that makes my mind wander, and then the tricks start. im only on this ( Read more... )