Okay. I admit it. I'm in a rut. A huge rut.

Would somebody please be kind enough to help me out here?

-spinner

Day to day life has turned into the most boring cycle I have ever experienced.

I wake up, I go to school, I see Marco and I skip the rest of the day I go home, I do homework, I eat dinner, I go to sleep. Repeat in seven to ten hours ( Read more... )

I've gotten really good at pretending.

I'd probably try to kill myself tonight if I wasn't already seeing a therapist three times a week.

he probably wouldn't even care. At all.

This wouldn't be happening if I'd succeeded the first time. Everything would be alot easier if I wasn't such a screw up.

-Spinner

This plane is definately crashing
This boat is obviously sinking
This building's totally burning down
( And my heart has slowly dried up )

Your hand on his arm
The hay stack charm around your neck
Strung out and thin
Calling some friend trying to cash some check
He’s acting dumb
That’s what you’ve come to expect
( Needle in the hay )

Sometimes I really do hate myself.

I hate it when I think too much.

Like when I think about how, maybe the reason he's so uphappy right now is because of me. Because he's with me ( Read more... )

So, it looks like we've worked everything out only not at all. nothing's worked out. there's something wrong with him, he's not himself anymore and I miss it..

My sincere apologies to Marco and Dylan. Accidents happen I just hope that they're not still happening.

School sucks, as always. and what about those jocks? I hope they're not still giving ( Read more... )

Cupid's trick comes down to shake and deal
the stupid kick that makes me real
( should've died )

Embrace the emo, then let it go.

Because it hurts way too damn much.

I'm not even me anymore. the old me would have been pissed. not depressed as hell.

Shit.

-Spinner

I'm worried about Marco. I'm afraid I've done something wrong, or something has happened to him, or something.

Yeah, I'm a worry wart (I sound like my mother), but still. He hasn't talked to me in days now. I only barely see him in the halls.

I miss him.

I hope he isn't angry with me.

I've been so bored recently.

And I don't feel so well.-