Its winter quarter and fall didnt go too well, so im determined to make the best of this one. Im glad to be back here, seeing old friends at home was good, it motivated me to continue to do my best here at ucsc. i forget sometimes why it was that i truely came here and im not trying to screw this up. i know i tend to fuck shit up for myself, some ( Read more... )

so its almost finals. crazy the quarter is almost over. My second year of college has begun and ive gotten the chance to get to know many cool people, and also to fall for someone who doesnt deserve me. The fact that i can say that shows how ive been able to grow here. Usually i would just cry and think about how i will never find love, especially ( Read more... )

So here i am cooking chicken. I dont know how to cook shit but somehow i agrred i would cook chicken. So its cokking haha. anyway, the BBQ yesterday went well, i was having an alright time, i think i just dont allow myself t have a good time, i guess its that i feel like maybe i shouldnt be. I have an appointment with the doctor on monday so ( Read more... )

Well my day went well. I've been fasting since last night and in a few minutes fasting will be over. Not being able to consume food has really made me think about how precious it is. I mean no matter if i cant afford food, i know that somehow i will be well fed. It's so crazy to think about how thats not other people's reality. i think about that ( Read more... )

So i voted for the first time yesterday. Crazy times i suppose. But yea im so angry about the elections. How did Bush win again? i mean i dont understand. he's not a good president and im not saying kerry is but man i would prefer that guy over bush. it makes me lose hope in voting and in everything i do, i mean whats the point i cant change ( Read more... )

Well its monday and the week has unfortunatly just begun. The play yesterday was good and my professor from Chican@ teatro was in it. that was cool, she's good, and afterwards she saw me and hugged me and stuff, that was really nice. anyway, it was cool, i spoke to raymond a lot. he made me feel happy i dont know, but it was good stuff. anyway, ( Read more... )

well, i went to go see Rainbow last night and it was sooo good. i didnt really expect me to enjoy it this much. i dont know there was this one skit and it almost made me cry. like if i wasnt so scared to show how emotional things can get me then i would probably cry. which is funny cuz i cry all the time. but yea i guess it made me realize that im ( Read more... )

well, this quarter ive been doing alright. well over the summer lucy and i got close and well nothing really ever happened, but i fell for her. And with that i fell flate on my face. we arent even talking anymore,its my fault though. i cant stand the thought of being just friends so i asked for time, and she wasnt very happy in fact she said it was ( Read more... )

well, i turned in my portfolio at 1:50pm and it was cool cuz it had to be turned in by 2pm. Anyway, im happy that i finished my revisions and my damn research paper, because it was begining to be be a drag. anyway yesterday was my stats final and it went alright, well i hope it was alright i got really stressed out about it because i tried ( Read more... )

Well, its Saturday, and im done with classes. next week i need to turn in my portfolio for writing 1 and i have a final for stats and then im done!! thank god! anyway the past week has been pretty hectic. i had a 8 page paper due on thursday and that was pretty stressful i tell u! anyway,it was cool after that i felt so relieved. i went to mentor ( Read more... )