I don't know what to do any more. I feel like I'll always never be any good. I want to tell people the truth and make them shut up and listen for once. I want to tell them how horrible i feel. how lonely i feel all the time. how frustrated i am all the time at all of the wrong things that i see around me. how our whole lives are a walking ( Read more... )

I was reminded today how fucked up our morality as a nation is. How we are willing to compromise anything just for more money... Deplorable..

why do people have to be so stupid! when did the world we live in become something that denies us our humanities because of greed? i really don't want to live in the states anymore. today i went back to the doctor that gave me the diagnosis of pink eye last week, and he refuses to give me a doctors note because "you can be ok to work, just practice ( Read more... )

My boss took me to Pho and had a pep talk with me. and everything went well. we talked about alot of things, but again, i felt that i held back a little because i'm not stupid enough to think that if i said the wrong thing to her, i could be fired instantly. As much as she boasts that she 'knows' people at a glance, the thing that baffles me is how ( Read more... )

there are alot of things that my mind is thinking about. And i guess it's just easier to type things out where i can be more precise with my words then talk about them, but also because every time i actually try and express the depth of my problems, a loud voice in my head always shouts back "Quit complaining! You're just trying to make excuses to ( Read more... )

so this guy today had a fungus under his toe. I preformed a pedi on him because people had already put him into the water. so what was i supposed to do? plus, since he started with the other foot, i didn't know about any of it till one foot was already done? What was i supposed to do? stop mid service and say "I'm sorry sir, i can't preform a ( Read more... )

I'm fat ( Read more... )

And today the "fuck Grace" month continues. Today my best friend backed out of moving in with me because he had so much stuff and my house was small and cluttered. But he didn't back out when he was still at his house. No. He backed out after he tried getting his bed upstairs, but couldn't get all of it. It was then that he crushed every hope I had ( Read more... )

September has been horrid. Daisey has an autoimmune disease. Light fixtures needed fixing. Furnace has a crack in it and needs to be replaced. And Daisey had two seizures. I am so fuckin done with September. Now Matt is angry at me. There is this guy in wow that I just meet and is a decent RPer. So we've been RPing for the last two days. Tonight ( Read more... )

Today fuckin sucked. From shitty clients to irritating co-workers to a guy who is now less than a person. To day just sucked. I'm eager for it to be over and done with. But first I have to go to bed. Ugh. It's already 2 and I had every intention of going to bed at 12. Happens every fucking time and I'm so sick of it. Yet here I am... Also, one of ( Read more... )