Man, what a summer it has been so far. 3 weeks of non-stop all night partying with chris and other people has been just great. But now it has ended, not because we ran of of money or places to go, but I got a job. Yes, the first job I had paid $8/hour but was out in the heat and I was losing my pale complexion I worked so hard for so I quit and got ( Read more... )

This morning I was watching a program on A&E that was about teenage killers. They were talking to kids who had already killed and were in jail and kids that were on the edge. It really got to me. I could relate to what they were saying. Not like, killing people and children and shit, fuck that. But about what they had gone through before they did ( Read more... )

Poor Chris ( Read more... )

What.. the.. fuck? My life is fucked up and repeats itself. My cat went missing again, and after two days of searching, I found him at the black people's house again. I am getting really pissed at them, and had there of been a person present that was over the age of 7, I would had beat the living shit out of them ( Read more... )

Everything still stands and I'm still mad, but I've used it constructively. I haven't smoked any weed at all, since last night. I don't even know how. But that's good. Other than that there's not much to say, except I am losing my mind ( Read more... )

On Canada day I went to a field party with Chris. When we got there everyone was drunk. Later that night, I too was drunk. I was given too many shots or someone put something in my drink but either way, I'm never drinking like that again. I woke up at 8am the next day and and made myself a huge breakfast. After contemplating what I had done and ( Read more... )

I'm actually happy right. It's great. I'm smiling and I'm loving it. A lot of good news to report. But I'm tired as hell because Chris and I stayed up till 4am watching "The People Under the Stairs" (which is AN AWESOME FUCKING MOVIE!) and I had to wake him up at 9:30 to go to exam returns. So, meh.

Gah. It's been so damned boring this past few days. The last interesting thing I did was hang out with Steve, Pudd and Jay on the weekend for Steve and Pudd's birthday. Now I'm just waiting for this week to go by so it'll be Canada day because there is a "field party". I talked to Elamin and he said it's in Yarker, which is cool. he's calling me ( Read more... )

Man, I can't believe it. I am probably never going to see any of the people I know ever again. It's weird. Watching everyone advance while I'm still stuck here. It makes me mad. At myself and at them, although I know that I shouldn't be mad at them. Godamn jealousy. I am smarter than a lot of people I know that are going to Queens, which makes me ( Read more... )

I can’t believe how far I have fallen and how dark I have become. Loneliness, jealously, hate and greed have brought me down this path. Through that combination I had become a being of hate. And honestly, I am not. Although at times I can be a mean jerk, I also have the potential to be of the nicest, kind-hearted and funny people you’ll have the ( Read more... )