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I'm thinking and making up worst case scenarios at 1 am. Why do I do this? I keep convincing myself the worst will happen I guess so when it doesn't I feel better and if it does, I am not as surprised. I do this all the damn time. I just get in a mood and my analytical self just goes into high gear. I'm feeling blue today, so I know that has ( Read more... )

Yes, I realize that I have 2 days left in my "Eight days of happiness" crap... but absolutely nothing has made me happy or made me laugh in the past few days. I'm still waiting.

I have a lot to bitch about, though.

I didn't think anything would make me happy today. Had to have a conversation I was avoiding with an Indian guy... ech. My back was killing me, I was not in a good mood, in general I just felt like shit. And I had to work. This is my 4th day of my 9 day stretch with not a day off until Friday. Was annoyed and in pain. And then the old, ( Read more... )

26th - Day o' happiness number 5. Happy today came in the form of an early morning phone call. A random number showed up on my phone. I figured it was a creditor, so I hung it up. It called right back and I hung it up again. I figured, "Well I'm awake now. So, I came in the living room and signed onto Yahoo messenger ... (my default morning ( Read more... )

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OK... so I'm supposed to post something that made me happy today and do this for 8 days. I don't have much better to do, so I'll play.

I got to talk to Annas on the phone today... that always makes me happy.

Am headed to Albertville today... that has the possibility for happiness, but we'll have to see when I get there.

I realize nobody really pays attention to these posts... but I post them for me. Not you. So live with it.

We're better today. Thank God... al7amdulillah y3ani we worked everything out. Turns out his cousin was on the laptop yesterday which is why there were no responses. I called him today and asked if I was on probation with him ... and ( Read more... )

So today I thought would be better. He and I would talk, even if it was just a little bit. We'd chalk it up to me just going momentarily neurotic and he'd tell me to not worry about it.. then he'd make me laugh. He told me, more than once, "I'm not angry, I just don't know what the hell got into you..." But today... TODAY he was online on the ( Read more... )

I really screwed this one. He and I were talking on the internet today. I don't know what happened. I just got into a bad mood. Then I started to get paranoid. We ended up getting into an argument of sorts. Nothing bad was said. It just gets to me that he knows I'm upset or I'm crying and he doesn't want to do something to fix it. He won't ( Read more... )