rebuilding hope is my next major project ( Read more... )

if anyone actually reads this (and i have an idea of who you are) you've probably never done this to me (i'll leave margin for error on who actually reads this ( Read more... )

things seem to be going along fine, then - Slap! - it hits me in the face. the absence of her rings in my heart. echoes around the empty hole in my chest. everything aches and i have trouble breathing. I MISS HER SO MUCH RIGHT NOW ( Read more... )

not such a bad weekend this weekend. i ended up getting my couch, finally, so now i have some furniture and a better place to sleep. that's nice ( Read more... )

stuck again. there's things i need to do. time to be spent on other activities, but here i am again ( Read more... )

another night having trouble finding sleep.  that was always something that i had trouble with, but now sleep seems like a bad idea, subconsciously speaking, or... something.  i fear it, maybe.  i don't really know.

as i get more tired, i get more tense, more agitated.  why is that?

i could just lay down and try to sleep.  maybe if i did that i ( Read more... )

hello folks ( Read more... )

i've been an emotional wreck the last 2 days ( Read more... )

well, tomorrow it is.  we meet to discuss our final dissolution.  (i thought i'd toss in a nice legal word there ( Read more... )

 it's a sunday morning and birds are chirping out side my window and the world goes on.  the universe continues to expand and move and process without regard for a tiny being on an insignificant planet revolving around an average star.  and i continue to hurt.

i'm really fearing the meeting that she and i are going to have to have.  the one in ( Read more... )