So I haven't written in a while for a couple reasons. 1) I thought that maybe disconnecting myself from a reliance on internet, e-mail, texting, etc. might be a nice change and could bring me back to a center and appreciation for slowing life down. 2) I am sick. I started feeling ill Saturday night and what do ya know, Bobby did too....from like ( Read more... )

So I didn't write yesterday because I was a grumpy, fiesty little girl yesterday. For one, just know that not all communities out there are filled with nice people. I guess I could have guessed that but some people just hide behind their computers with their jerky comments...hoping that someone else in the group will think their comment is funny ( Read more... )

Today has been great!  I got my frist letter from BOBBY!!!!!  I guess he sent it last thursday so I'm not sure if he got my letters yet.  I'm hoping he has now.  He mainly just talked about processing and how it sucked, and that HE PASSED OUT! =(  He is really homesick but he says that he's just trying not to think about it.  He's too funny, listen ( Read more... )

I have to say my fear of "not exisitng" has subsided the past few days.  For a long time now, the thought of not exisiting has really freaked me out.  I believe in Jesus and God and Heaven........that's not the point.  If you stop, hold perfectly still and think about not exisiting anymore, no heart beat, no breath, no anything.........it's a ( Read more... )

So I went to my landlord's today to drop off the remaining balance since our rent went up.  She is sooo nice and kinda spilled the beans on my bitch roomate.  muhahah.  She asked how things were and if I had heard anything more about my job and when I said no, she asked if I were going to go ahead and stay until September!  HAHAHA so EVEN MY ( Read more... )

This is so much harder than I imagined.  As I sit in my bed, my only commfort right now is my 3 pound dog who is hiding under the covers licking my foot.  My other dog is sitting at my door, like a guard....I hope she lets NONE of my stupid ass roomates in (sorry for the language).  It's not like I had some incredibly bad evening or anything.  I ( Read more... )

So you know how 21st birthdays are...they last like a week.  So tonight she decided to have people over to the house...like an acutal house party.  I would have loved to show love and stay, but so close to obtaining some of my goals, I couldn't chance being here if the cops got called so I went to my friend's and watched a movie.   Not just any ( Read more... )

So unless I go out to my favorite country bar line dancing, I really don't go out.  It's not that I'm being anti-social, I just am not a huge fan of the drinking scene, especially in a town such as Orlando where almost no one can be trusted dowtown.  Either way, it was my roomates 21st Birthday last night, and away to dollar drinks at a three story ( Read more... )

I bought the Linkin Park CD yesterday.  It's good, but totally different than I would have expected.  It's kinda deep and I like it, but it's not a "pick-me-up" sound at all.  I guess that's why we have country music ( Read more... )