Just to make sure people know, my london blog's url is norasporn.blogspot.com

Tonight, I shared myself with my Pelham friends. I can't believe I forgot how awesome and kind and smart they were and I am appalled that they have been missing from my life for the greater part of this year. I think telling them about what has been going on was a good thing to do. They will understand if things start falling apart. They relate ( Read more... )

Oh yea, and it feels like everything that can be cruelly ironic has been happening to me.

It seems like the only things I've been making lately are mistakes. Each one makes me look stupider and less responsible than the next.

My life right now in a nutshell:

I wake up tired, I work, I go to class , I go home , I eat smarties. Nighttime comes, I feel depressed and worthless, I cry. I see Matt, my depression and insecurities show, I frustrate and disappoint him, I cry again, then I eat more smarties.

I'm stuck

I suck

What to say, what to say ( Read more... )

Lately I'm just soooo tired. I haven't been getting enough sleep and breakfast shifts twice a week don't help.

I take things way too personally. I'm going to suck at life as a depressed grump.

Things were rocky for a little bit but now I think we're moving on to establishing a more mature, two-sided relationship. It's easy when you're single to avoid situations of pressure and to just distance yourself from the people that hurt you without actually confronting them. I'm learning how to confront through him and I think that's actually ( Read more... )