Joyce and I moved out into sailwind apartments about two weeks ago. I love it here other than the druggies that live here. My car is a piece of shit I've spent like six hundred dollars and it still isn't fixed. Joyce blew up my starter so it's been hard trying to deliver chinese food when you fucking car won't even start. I try to smooth talk it ( Read more... )

On the 15th of December I tried to commit suicide, I took a bottle of pills and was rushed to the hospital. I was brought to the ER. I started having horrible pains in my legs and was screaming, because it hurt so bad. They finally gave me something for the pain. After I was stabilized they sent me to the Psychiatric Ward, where I slept until the ( Read more... )

I just came to the conclusion that I'm going to go to a hypnotist. I don't want to remember things in my past. It's too much. I'm going to forget about someone once and for all, so I can lead a normal happy life with my wife and not worry about the unknown. They can make people stop smoking so I'm sure they can help you with getting over someone. I ( Read more... )

One More Try ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm writing in this journal, I guess I feel like it's an escape from this shitty reality. Today was one of the hardest days of my fucking entire existence. I decided to take a break from Joyce. We have been fighting so much lately that I felt like it was best. I love that girl more than anything or anyone, so why doesn't she see it ( Read more... )

I'm so tired, but I can't sleep, worrying too much. Sometimes I wish I had a switch I could flip so I could turn off that fucked up brain of mine. My girlfriend is hanging out with two drug addicts, that are going to get her arrested. I keep telling her that she needs to consider what I've been through with court costs, being put in a fucking ( Read more... )

Schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. I am not sure because they are so similar to each other.
Some of the symptoms include:
Hallucinations- Hearing, seeing, feeling, smelling, tasting, etc. things that other people don't.
Delusions- can make someone believe things that are false, even when someone else explains the truth. Delusions can make people ( Read more... )

I saved a turtle today. It was in the right lane on a busy road in Eagle Lake, I saw it and drove off the road and parked. I jumped out of my car and picked it up and put it in my car. Me and Joyce took it to the lake and it swam away really fast. This is like the fourth turtle I've saved so far. It would have gotten hit if I didn't get it. Some ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to go to PCC to take some criminology courses so I won't be 40 yrs old and still living with my mom. Jon and I went to southern nights thursday. It really wasn't fun, other than hanging out with Jon which is always a blast. We listened to Celine Dion on the way back and he put on that one song, You were my eyes when I couldn't see ( Read more... )

Everything just sucks at this point in time. All these feelings I have are blurring my vision. I'm sacrificing my friendship with Jon cause of her. We were supposed to hang out with him Friday cause he was off from work, but then she went ahead and made plans with Jon and Alex. We got into a huge fight cause I'm sacrificing someone that has always ( Read more... )