I think something is wrong with me, in the past 2 months Ive become increasingly more withdrawn. I never have fun going out anymore, unless it's super low key. But ive been opting to stay in and watch tv a lot more. Lately when i do try and go out on weekends, i get panic attacks, or really bad anxiety. Last night i left at 1am feeling like i ( Read more... )

I finally have a job, a job i actually like
Im going back to my natural hair color
Im falling for someone i probably cant ever have
I have girl friends again
I still dont wear colors
Im kinda writing music
I miss new york
I cant stop listening to the new bat for lashes....
My life in a nut shell, at least this month.

I havnt written in here since the summer, wow. Not that anything very eventful has happened but still. Hmmm. The year is almost over, Im glad, it's been a tough one, full of break ups and let downs, drama and being broke. I moved out of my apt last week with the help of some sweet young men, I put my shit in storage and have been crashing at my ( Read more... )

I'm in like.
IN other news, Austin is still boring....

The time is 12:41 am, I am at my desk watching "this mist" on Surf the channel.com. I'm pretty sleepy. Trying not to think about something iver been thinking about too much the past few days. Oh man I am 16 again. Speaking " agains" It's time to move again. As lame as im sure 90% of people i know would think this sounds, I am strongly considering ( Read more... )

I don't even remember the last time i wrote in here, but i know it's been a while. I guess i don't ever really have anything to say. But Clark insists i write something. So anyway lets see.... I currently work at American apparel, I just got put in charge of merchandising at the outlet and Im hoping to be put in charge of it for the other stores in ( Read more... )

I never write in here anymore, i guess i don't have much to say. I got a new job, i like it...I'm going on a trip in sept to a place i never thought i would go ( Read more... )

Lately my brain seems to be blocking me from being able to have a good time ever. I hate it. I've been so unhappy the past week. I dont know what i want to do with myself anymore. I cant stand school and im terrible at it. I would rather get drunk than go study, i get anxiety attakcs if i dont drink when i go out, im kind of a mess. Ugh, I'm going ( Read more... )

Its 7am an im awake. I got way too drunk last night. The past few days i've been in a shit mood. Really sad. I think i hate boys a whole lot right now, they are so full of shit. I dont remember the last time i was up this early. I feel cracked out. Im not drinking tonight thats for sure, i dont even know if I'll be going out. I sort of want to ( Read more... )

I finally had a good time last night. It had been way too long. I realy enjoy the people i hang out with these days, and I finally got my keybaord back so i can make some music. It's been way too long. Hopefully the good weekend is carried out through tonight. I need it.