I hate this shit. Things I thought were real are not and things I thought were over have perhaps just begun. 
Words to live by:

Love is rare
Life is strange
Nothing lasts and
People change 

Today sucked really bad. I got stressed out because all the pressure was on me during our busiest time of the day and what do I do when I get stressed? I get extremely quiet and the only giveaway that I'm in a foul mood is the look in my eyes and my silence. Damnit, I made my coworker not want to work with me anymore. I like her a lot and I hate ( Read more... )

Dammit this week has gone by too slowly. I am anxious. Bought cute clothes to wear for cute boyfriend. Want to see him every day and tell him everything but we never seem to have enough time to talk. I can't fucking wait until he gets down here and can be with me every day. I want him to get his dream job and be happy because he deserves it so ( Read more... )

...Of naughty deeds in laundry rooms. Ha fucking ha. Bet most people don't do THAT on their weekends. Then again I'm not most people.
I have a new equation in my life up and coming: me minus baby plus hot boyfriend = weekend of bliss. Can't fucking wait. Happy and nervous.
All is well for now.

Things are...indifferent. Personal life extra super spectacularly more wonderful than I'd hoped. Work is great, missing Vane but I know we'll keep in touch. Other stuff is...pfffft. Bleh. Blah. Barf. Fuckit. Irritated as Hell every day, sick as a motherfucker and no way to rest. Cranky indeed. Having issues with people. No way to fix that. Just ( Read more... )

Yes indeedy. My birthday is in 22 days, and my life is going so well. I'm getting a lot of money really soon and I have all kinds of responsible and economical ways to spend it. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. I am happy in my personal life for the first time in 3 years. Major uber super happy, content and excited. Wow. Nothing left to say ( Read more... )

Planning on a fantastic weekend. Worked until 5:20 last night, and left before my former friend got there to help with the carpet. Funny, his ass got kicked to the curb before he even made it in the house. LOL. No matter though, when in comparison to certain other people in my life he falls pathetically and ridiculously short. I never deserved to ( Read more... )

I'm sooooooooo fucking tired. Been staying on the phone way too late but it's totally worth it. 
 

 Aha. Well wouldn't you know it? Stuck in the purgatorial depths of uncertainty I feel ridiculously underappreciated and decidedly ignored. However, patience is a virtue and I am nothing if not virtuous these days. Yeah right. And Mary was really a virgin. Whatfuckingever. I begin each day with the best of intentions only to devolve as hopes become ( Read more... )

 Ok so...perhaps more confused than ever and feeling unfortunately insecure at the moment. Which, as those who are close to me these days understand, I am not of late an insecure person. However, am wondering why I am the other woman. Again. Decided I was done with the first one, I held on for three months hoping he'd leave her for me, but that ( Read more... )