I've been away too long hiding within myself. Tommorow is a new day to breathe with freedom.

5:00 p.m.

Taking a diuretic and going to drink some broth,and call it an early night. Need some R & R time so I can beat myself up again tommorow. Maybe a muscle relaxer will do me some good too. Going to go stare at my fat ass in the mirror some, close my eyes and pretend I could cut it all off.

Well, I am feeling seriously fat, but moreso than normal because I didn't lose yesterday and Flo is on her way which always helps. I lay in bed at night thinking of all the way I can lose a pound. I get up in the morning knowing that only half of them will get fulfilled because of kids and other things that come up. It bothers me when I don't ( Read more... )

Well, I am tired and hungry. Busted my ass yesterday, and paying for it today. Needing to fast again, ate too much yesterday. Still losing, but not fast enough, I feel like a failure in that department, but I understand that is part of the drive to keep starving myself. Gotta run to the store finish shopping for the kids for school. I am going ( Read more... )

So I was on a downhill for a month. Folks had came husband was around etc. I am finally able to do my thing again and so far, so good, hold my breath, 8 lbs. since July 26. No pills, just two days of fasting followed by a day of eating a little. Encouraging yes, but I will not stop until I can see my bones. I was there once a long time ago ( Read more... )

I am so mad at myself. Eating pizza and cake. I didn't gain, but I didn't lose as much as I could over the weekend either. I am getting serious about fasting over the next three weeks, because when classes start, I have to eat some. So I can think straight. I have to figure out how to eat around classes and still lose. Maybe I can eat ( Read more... )

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Well I am fairly happy, because I lost four pounds last week and I can tell it is real pounds and not just water because Aunt Flo is getting ready to make her appearance and I am always retaining fluid when she draws near. If i can only keep losing the fat ( Read more... )

J are you out there....

The website is realanas_over21 search under pro ana.

I start my cleansing diet today. :-)

Yum Yum

Well, today I fast. So happy to be alone again so I don't have to cover up ana. MY husband has no clue because he is never home. :-) When he is home I just eat a salad or something in front of him and fruit. I am getting pretty much sick of people lurching in these journals of my friends and bashing them, so I opened my own community so I could ( Read more... )