Comments | gargantsurprise: and all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me

gargantsurprise

and all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me

Feb 13, 2011 03:09

Be My Escape - Relient K

The rest of this post is completely unrelated to lyrics! Hahaha.

( Just going to try and articulate a few things. This is a terribly miserable update, I'm afraid. )

Comments 8

cruxis February 13 2011, 05:45:30 UTC

For what it's worth, I know you do a damn lot, even if. No one in your family does see it. That hardly addresses what you're saying here, but I'm not about to let this pass unmentioned. I know you're not... really talking yourself down here, exactly, but. I don't know, that just felt important for me to say.

I'm not anywhere near awake and I'm sorry I darted out on such short notice (I really, really hate doing that to people). I'll be around most of tomorrow in the later afternoon, I expect, so feel free to hit me up for anything. Same offer you made me when I needed it; even if you don't, it's always open for you, too.

gargantsurprise February 13 2011, 14:37:31 UTC

I can't completely agree, but I do appreciate what you're saying. Thank you, boss man. I am sorry for being poor company, ahhh. ♥

BUT ALSO, you don't have to apologise, man, sometimes short notice happens. It is no problem at all. And perhaps I will catch up with you at some point today! I will surely be around, I usually aaam.

cruxis February 13 2011, 17:46:55 UTC

You might not agree, but bear in mind that you can only do as much as others' allow you to do, too. That's something hard to remember.

Yes but that doesn't mean I have to like it. :| And I will look for you, after I am finished being. An idiot. o/

vampireduzell February 13 2011, 12:35:50 UTC

Hmm I dont have much in the way of advice to give ( ... )

gargantsurprise February 13 2011, 14:53:36 UTC

I don't know, I don't think you really could have done anything differently in your situation. You were in no position to 'pick a side', and I really don't think you should harbor any guilt at all. It pains me to hear you say you do! You took a lot on yourself in not choosing sides: you kept yourself open to everyone. You say you put distance between yourself and your family, but I really think they appreciated everything you held for them in that time, you know. I really hope so.

You've got some good advice in here, though I'm not sure if I can deploy it all. Not because it's bad advice, but because I've already sabotaged some of it already (I may have used the words 'hate' and 'your girlfriend' all of... two days ago, hahaha). I don't know, I have some figuring out to do.

So yeah, I am going to think about all of this. ♥ And what are you talking about, we're not friends. I DON'T EVEN LIKE YOU :|a (thank you, always ♥)

vampireduzell February 13 2011, 16:22:27 UTC

Haha thanks, just remember your own advice when it comes to family you can never pick a side.

Ok so damage control over dinner bring it up say, without mentioning the word hate again, that you think you need to maybe give gf benefit of doubt and get to know her as shes an important part of your dads life...it may or may not work lol

I delude myself into thinking we're friends, i must have got fantasy mixed up with reality! :P

truly_bohemian February 17 2011, 16:45:46 UTC

I should have replied to this ages ago. Really, the ideal situation was probably talking to you about it on Monday. I'm sorry. I've been so caught up in my own problems (as usual) and worrying that there was nothing I could say that I haven't even tried. We are both wonderful at talking about real life things, aren't we?

I suppose my best defense is that I hope it's pretty obvious that I'll always look out for you, I'll always care, in my way - just as I know you'll always look out for me. It doesn't exactly excuse me for being the kind of wretch who just ignores this for days though.

I don't know what to do to help, apart from saying that if you know of anything I can do, I'll do it like a shot. And I will distract you with anime and Spartacus and terrorising Drew. I think having space from your Dad will be good for you - just as long as he doesn't end up all but disappearing. Perhaps when you and Jimi are in the house, you can have a family dinner once a week so that your Dad and Charlie can see one another? I think Charlie's ( ... )

gargantsurprise February 19 2011, 15:33:54 UTC

I should have replied to this sooner, we I think is just proof that we are an eternal pair of pros. Total proskis.

I wish I could say more, too, apart from that appreciate all your words. And you do so much for me already, you hopeless dope, the last thing you need to be doing is asking if there's any more. I am coming to see you in less than an hour, and I have total faith that we will both fail to say anything about our troubles (though I will undoubtedly complain about other things!). But that is okay, because I've known you far too long, I don't need to say things any more. You get it and comfort me anyway. ew ( ... )