I wanted to post so many things. I wanted to write, just for the sake of writing. I'm feeling unsuccessful lately. I have that nagging voice in the back of my head telling me I can't do these things I want to do. I want to write. You aren't very good at that! I want to make and sell Spa products, like lip balm, bath salts, lotion bars and hand made ( Read more... )

Every person on the planet has their problems. Mental illness. Cancer. Finances. Parents. Children. Pets. Pollution. Small things, big things, tall things. Short things. Everyone has issues. I'm very aware of that. I can't change that. I can't help people with their problems. I don't expect people to help me. You might be able to understand how ( Read more... )

We aren't really religious. We don't really celebrate "Christmas" but we do like exchanging gifts. I view it as a time to make a list of things you would use IF you had them to use. I like gifts like clothes, yarn, gift cards, funny socks, make-up, kitchen tools/appliances/utensils. I love when people give my son clothes and shoes, it means I don't ( Read more... )

Just about 2 weeks ago we moved all our big furniture into a new apartment. The following week we (just the two of us) worked on walking, car packing and loading/unloading the rest of our stuff. A week ago we got the last of our stuff out of the old place and into the new. Today, out of every day the last week, I feel a little over whelmed. 15-20 ( Read more... )

What the fuck? I mean... I have regular cycles for years and years then... irregularity. How fun. I can't count on every 28 days, or every 21 days. I stop taking birth control and now I have 3-7 weeks between periods. Is it misscarriages? Is it an ovarian cyst? Am I dying of cancer?! It's scary not knowing. It's a rollercoaster ride I don't want to ( Read more... )

I have talked to a few people who feel the same way about this "Occupy Wall Street" protest happening right now. I don't have a whole lot to say about it that any supporter of the cause would listen to, or even consider. I'm not stupid, I try to stay away from politics, and I feel very distant from what exactly is going on. What I have to say is ( Read more... )

We all have them ( Read more... )

I haven't written much of anything lately. It's not that I don't want to... I've just been busy. Gabe is in Kindergarten. He comes home and wants to eat, eat, eat, until dinner. Then he's too tired to eat dinner. Asleep at 8:30 pm awake at 7 am. He really needs that much sleep?! Two years ago he would go to sleep at 9:30 pm and be WIDE awake at 5 ( Read more... )

Here I am, different. Different. Different. I don't have a job. I had to get rid of it. I was loosing sleep. Loosing hair. Loosing myself. Stress was killing me. I couldn't eat. So, no job. I have been going round and round with my social worker/pharmacy/medical billing/medi-cal/social worker/pharmacy just to get the usual every day stuff to be ( Read more... )

So, this is day 4 that one of us has gotten up early to meet the construction workers for a fireplace removal... And they don't show up when they say they will. They told us 10 am on Friday. I got up at 9:10 and took a shower... here it is 11 and no word, no knock nothing. I saw them outside... even heard them next door. We are both kind of pissed ( Read more... )