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For the past two months or more I've wanted to walk with my father. A lot.

So the other day I uncovered some letters I wrote in the event of my death (cause I'm morose and just so goth, right?). In any event at the time it seemed a possibility. I summarily burned them. My retardation does not need to extend from beyond the grave. Dunno where I'm going with this one, just kinda felt the need to share at the moment.

Are a fool. That be ok though, as I have found. Sometimes it be worth the dream, sometimes not.  In this case I am as usual unsure however, as I have always been.  grr. chalk this one u      p to you being drunk. Mako's teh most sense to do I would figure, though since when has that stopped me? ... ... .. So I sum-arise ( Read more... )

I had fun tonight, which is nice because it was all in good.  Inclination kinda ruled the night but I find nothing wrong with that at the moment.  It is what it is, and I do what I do. It's not neccessary but it does add it's own interesting flavor. I've no clue why it be that way, there is no standardized reason for it, methinks it really be just ( Read more... )

Yay. I'm doing better. I think.

Aaaaaand I just realized that I am in the process of destroying something that was actually made for my benefit. I have some reasons but I was not intentionaly doing this.  It bears investigation. ... ... ... ... .. There is more (like always) but that is for a different juncture I believe. I wanna figure this out.

Hurm... ... ... think think

2011. Cool.  Goal: Be better.

Alright, let's fuck this pony.

I must say, I forget I have this thing more and more as time goes by. Not really a bad thing as you can never look back and remember till you're somewhere else.  It's a fun read and if you're careful, you actually be able to see personal growth (prolly just a vicious unsubstantiated rumor though).  Hmm, First semester at USF. I like it. I was ( Read more... )

Sometimes, it seems to me, that my life is defined by the things left undone or unsaid. This is not done out of possible regret, or in shame, it simply seems to be the case with myself.  To be "good" many a time have I gone against my natural inclination. I doubt if this makes me a better person, even a "good" one at length.  Shouldn't one who is ( Read more... )