where to start where to start??

how about here...MOVING SUCKS...no really it does...and to think that when my parents get up to oregon im gonna have to do this all over again scares me...newho...i am though excited about getting the fuck out of LA. GOD i cant wait...to get away from the very exsistant that has turned me into who i am today...ok so ( Read more... )

as i sit here and wait for a trial that seems never coming. i dont know how im going to put up w. this. i dont know how im going to get through the holidays w. a smile on my face knowing im still going to have to testify again a guy i thought i knew but somehow i was completely and utterly wrong about. i was with him for 8 months and those months ( Read more... )

what a last couple of weeks it has been...digressing from everything that happened which Jesse has been the hardest thing in the world for me...im quite sick and tired of everyone asking me how im doing...because honestly i dont know how that is on most days. Im just kinda rolling w. the punches right now...doing everything in my power to keep my ( Read more... )

wow what a week it has been...tuesday night was hell...but wendnesday  was even worse...if that was at all possible...i guess your ex boyfriend killing his mom will do that to someone...the craziest things have been running through my head ( Read more... )

aaaawww life and how crazy it really is..the last week has been nuts...everything i have been dealing w. and the way i have been dealing w. it...i have to commend myself i really do...i have made it a point to be as one of my friends said "poised" even in the most shitty circumstans...but at the same time i hate being the only one caring...the only ( Read more... )

funny how things end up working out...someone does one thing...and KARMA bites them in the ass...i mean really i didnt mean for things to go down like they did...shit happens...but really when you think of it after everything this girl has done to me...its really really really hard for me to feel bad about anything...IF SHE ONLY KNEW...that the ( Read more... )

So i totally forgot I even had this livejournal...so i figure that i would write in it because honestly Im kinda sick of myspace and facebook and all that other shit that keeps on popping up everywhere...anyways...im so tired i feel like my body cant even move...i dont know what my problem is...im not depressed or anything im just sick of drama and ( Read more... )

I figure i havent updated in forever so i though i would ( Read more... )

i feel like im outa control...like i cant control how i feel about nething...i truthfully just want things to go back to the way they were in January...fuck all of this...fuck me being pregnant...fuck Steve for the fact that i cry almost everyday because of him...fuck my parents for not getting their heads outa there asses...fuck my friends for the ( Read more... )