damnit if im not depressed with myself. i have seriously just went fucking downhill. . .i thought it wouldnnnnt matter, but no i lose my fucking stamina, my desire, my speed. .and i didnt want that to happen at all. ever since i became a pitcher all i ever dreamed about was playing college. .being famous. .playing for the US team. .i just want that ( Read more... )

i have came to realize lately that when you are young, you are stupid. you dont know what your doing, & you dont think anything through. im just come to realize that some people just arent worth your tears. some people think that they can do whatever they want, & that your always going to want them in your life no matter what. but thats not the ( Read more... )

oh wow. it really has been awhile hasn`t it? i hadnt planned on updating this thing .. but ah what the heck, it has just been oh so long, and right now i feel like remembering the old times. whoa, last year was so simple. things were just so much easier for me. i mean, not really if i think about it, but things just seemed easier. i loved the ( Read more... )

umm where to start! I haven`t updated in a very long while because I have been having a very busy summer so far. Softball has been going on almost every single day so I haven`t really had much of time for anything. . let alone update my journal. Things right now in my life are okay I guess. The family hasn`t been getting along too great but hey are ( Read more... )

hm. i decided it was time for me to update once again & let everyone know how my summer is going so far. let`s just say i`m going to be extremely busy all summer with softball. this past week i played 12 games, and pitched like 85% of them. & yesterday i had a junior league game against coeburn & we killed them. the first score was 15-0, & the ( Read more... )

shew i went to the doctor today and it turns out i have strep throat! yeah i know great huh? & to make things even better, the only way i could play softball the next week, would be to get this nice big stupid shot right in the butt! omg it hurt sooooo bad! i cried =[ it paid off though because we beat appy 20-0 and i pitched a no hitter with 13 k` ( Read more... )

oh em gish! it has been like an eternity since I last updated. Just let me tell you one thing, being grounded for the rest of your life really really really sucks butt. Never do anything stupid. I know that`s impossible. but seriously, because once you lose your trust with your parents, it takes a long time to get it back, and it takes even longer ( Read more... )

Wow, has a lot happened since I last updated. Shew. I have so much to say I really don't know how to word it?! You know what I mean? Shew, let`s just say things right now aren`t exactly picture perfect. I am grounded for the rest of my life, no details. But yeah it really sucks. I swear I have like the worst luck ever. Gosh ( Read more... )

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