*hugs* I get what you mean. I never had a date like that, but I was suicidal for quite a long time, and I'm on this slow roll of shock that I'll be turning 40 soon. I never thought I'd be 20, then never thought I'd be 30. Now, well, I fully expect 50 and 60 to happen and who the hell knows after that. It's a weird kind of thing to move on from, in that at least for me it always stays with me. Anyway, I'm glad you're here.
I really dug this post, thank you for sharing all that with us. I'm really glad you're here, and Good Enough is mighty fine, imo. I really love the concept of Pi Approximation Day, and I fully embrace it.
For me, this day was my 33rd birthday, as I arbitrarily decided when I was young that I didn't feel like living past a number I was fixated on at the time 32. I felt like it was a good amount of time to live life and yet have an end date, and to be able to go out on my own terms, long before my body and mind started to deteriorate. By the time that year rolled around I went through serious anxiety leading up to it because I didn't want to be seen as chickening out on a lifelong promise. I'm sure most people from middle school wouldn't even remember that I had promised this, and of course people say things like they're glad I didn't do it, but I think I'll always feel a little ashamed I couldn't follow through and am just another sad sack heading toward old age.
Comments 3
Reply
*hugs*
I really dug this post, thank you for sharing all that with us. I'm really glad you're here, and Good Enough is mighty fine, imo. I really love the concept of Pi Approximation Day, and I fully embrace it.
Reply
I'm glad you're in a better place now. :)
Reply
Leave a comment