Hi to everybody, it's nancy, Zen's sister writing- sorry i don't have an active lj of my own. i've inheritted Zen's laptop and i'm using her gmail and Lj accounts to contact as many friends as possible to invite everyone to a party for Zen that Pete, her mate, is putting together. All are welcome, i hope some of her fan-family can make it, I know a ( Read more... )

Hi, everyone -- this is trelkez, posting here to reach as many of Zen's friends as possible ( Read more... )

Hello zen's f'list, this is fan-eunice with the news no one wants to hear. Zen left us this evening at 10:30, at home surrounded by her sister, her Petey, her bunny, and me ( Read more... )

I am super happy to say that Topotecan is working!!! My symptoms are all calming down and getting better. I'm feeling stronger and more human every day, and my oncologist says this will most likely continue for a while. I'm buying more quality of life time, people, and it has me on cloud nine ( Read more... )

Tomorrow morning I will start a new chemo drug! Topotecan (sounds like a Carmen Miranda song) are pills that I can take at home, which is awesome. If it works, it will treat a bunch of these symptoms that are quickly escalating, like the potassium problems, the bloat and sweats, the wheezing, that sort of stuff. There is also a chance that I will ( Read more... )

Becca made perfect brownies, and then I slathered marshmallow fluff on it. HEAVEN!


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There is no easy way to say this, so, as always, I'll just lay the cards on the table. I saw my oncologist today, and I am now at the end stage of this journey. For the first time, I asked for her to give me numbers, and she said she didn't know, that my body would tell us that. We are talking months, most likely. She said I should go for the ( Read more... )

In the past three weeks, since the chemo has stopped working, I feel my body deteriorating. I have developed an almost permanent wheeze, which is extremely depressing, especially when I'm laying down to go to sleep. My feet and ankles are bloating up again, like they did when this all started nine months ago. I know that walking will help me shed ( Read more... )

The genetic mutation clinical trial called me back and I have a consultation appointment with them this coming Thursday. I'm not in the study yet, but it's one step closer. Yays!

It's been a rough couple of weeks. The CT scan showed new tumors on my liver, and growth on the existing tumors. However, the tumor on my lung shrunk another centimeter. The bone scan showed a new spot on my tibia, but that's really not concerning. The only worry about the bone metastasis is that it can cause pain, which it isn't right now ( Read more... )