It has been exactly three years since I moved into this apartment in Merced. I tried to move to Fresno briefly where I met a wonderful man that is now living with me back in my apartment in Merced. And let me just say this man is a wonderful cook and I am very happy for once. The couple is still living here but will be moving out soonish hopefully ( Read more... )

Been living in my apartment for about three years now. It's been an adventure, one that should have been alone but for the last year was shared with a couple. Its been a hard time since they moved in and they are driving me insane again. Anyways, I am dating a wonderful guy but I don't get to see him often enough. He works a lot and it drives a ( Read more... )

As of march I will be moving into my new apartment. All alone by myself, just little ole me. Housing finally came through and found me an apartment. Waiting on the credit check to clear which I am sure it will. Then I gotta wait for the guy to move out and them to clean the apartment. As soon as that is done its mine. I have the money set aside and ( Read more... )

On the news in paris terrorists have attacked and killed hundreds. Locally at the UCMerced there was an attack by an 18 year old they have deemed a terror attack as well. A stabbing of several people, left several dead including the murderer who was shot by the police. In my post on facebook I am left reading all the prayers being sent out by not ( Read more... )

So as march closes and I am sitting her it now being april, I am reminded as wedding season approaches just how alone I really am in my life. Sure I have lots of online friends, and lots of online flirts. Sure I have a couple of guys I can rely on for booty calls. But that doesn't change the fact that I am in every other sense of the word alone in ( Read more... )

So lets see, it is now 2014, I have finished a spring semester already. Found an apt, and am making new friends in merced. Moved home to california from a brief stay in wisconsin (it didn't work out). Looking for work and going to school part time. Class is almost over and I am getting a B as of midterms. Dating thing has been shakey but still at ( Read more... )

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There are times when making a difference in life really does mean so much more to some people than making a change of scenery. The truth is that I am still paying for the mistakes of the ones that I should love. So I am just going to be stuck at home till my parents realize that I have done all that I can do.

my dizzy spells keep getting worse every day and somethimes I just feel like I am never going to be able to get a straight answer about my problem.

You know I often think back to my many days over the years and wonder sometimes how different my life would be if some of my choices had been different. Looking back over the years there are some things in this life that I had no choice in and yet there are other things in this life that have moved me beyond words. Finding the right path for some ( Read more... )