In Which I Reveal Myself

[gemini6toad]

So, I've been seen a behavioral therapist for a few months now, and I'm considering starting on a mild anti-depressant drug. I have social anxiety, generalized anxiety, perhaps a little depression and attention deficit disorder. A fine smattering of modern, seemingly non-physical ailments. My mind races and I feel like I can never really relax and

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[littlemissangel]

Thanks for sharing that and it's amazingly similar to what I'm going through though my psychologist that I recently saw two times didn't work out. I'm checking into psychoanalysis to see if that would benefit me. I just got Zoloft 25mg but haven't started them yet because it makes me nervous to think of taking them... part of my anxiety? ;)

I know how it is never be able to shut down and relax (I constantly create Lists of Doom as my husband calls them) so I hope your therapy helps and would love to hear if you find anything that really works for you.
*hugs*

[gemini6toad]

Well well well, a similar soul! I am concerned about taking a pill - I don't want to become dependant. Hell, I don't think I really like the idea of a pill changing me, how I think. But in a book I read by Dr. Burns and at the advice of my therapist, it's worth a shot. My therapist pointed out that I have worked hard in therapy to feel better, so why not try something in addition to help? If it doesn't work, we stop. But it is unnerving.

The book is called Feeling Good, by Dr. Burns, and I taught me a lot about responding to the inner critic.

I'm glad you responded to my post. Perhaps we can provide encouragement to each other!

[littlemissangel]

Indeed! I was diagnosed with Dysthmia when I was around 21 ("mild" depression which lasts years, not extreme but you never seem really happy either) which I was told stemmed from the abuse I went through as a child. Your list sounded just like me with the anxiety, overanalyzing, overthinking sort of stuff. I bet you can't see my previous posts concerning my shrink visit that wasn't good so I'll make sure you are on that filter.

Same here about the pill... I told the doc I didn't want to try it because I don't want to feel or think differently. She tried to sell it to me about 1/2 an hour into my first visit. The 2nd visit was worse. I did have my primary doc call in the prescription and will most likely try it but the thought of taking it is exactly as you say - unnerving.

I'll have to look into that book.

Yes we certainly can try! :)

[renabena]

Being able to recognize all that and taking the steps you have though is a major step in the right direction for you to feel calm and at peace. Someone very close to me had dealt with very similar characteristics you described and she too was hesitant. But now she is so relieved she did. She describes it as finally feeling 'comfortable' in her own skin. She still gets the negative thoughts, but is able to talk herself through it and said it has made things so much better....not only for her but for her husband too. I hope you find what is going to work for you too. *hugs*

[gemini6toad]

Thanks :)

[reil_love]

oh best of luck, g. i have so so so many similar afflictions and i've tried the spectrum of anxiety meds and i finally found a new one that works better than any other i've ever tried. it's called 'pristiq.' i temper that with klonipin when needed. i hope you get the relief and reprive you're looking for:)

i've been able to really deal with life for the first time ever without (most of) the fretting, panic, fear, guilt, remorse and feelings of impending doom. and when they creep in i'm at least more capable of keeping them at bay.