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[geminiblondie]

I actually did great today... so far. I'm still doing good, but my "bad" time hasn't arrived yet. Everyone is still awake and I'm not lonely and craving food. I had a little can of V-8 (30 cals), a cappucino quencher from the yogurt store (made with plain coffee and sugar-free non-fat vanilla yogurt--90 cals) and a couple pieces of gum (sugar-

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[corrodethefilm]

please please please don't take diet pills. they are horrible horrible things and i don't think they even do much unless you're in serious need of them. even if they do, they aren't worth it because of what they do to your body. i know this probably isn't what you want to hear, but in my six years with an eating disorder i've never taken diet pills or laxatives and never even been tempted. please just take care of yourself; it will prove its own reward.

[geminiblondie]

thank you for your worry... and I definitely agree. I'm finishing this bottle of diet pills which I have and not taking anymore. I was big on diet pills when I was in high school and I really think it has screwed up my metabolism... I'm using what I had left as a jump start on this. Those two nights were my first experience with laxatives... and I'm definitely not doing that anymore... I just felt SO guilty ... and I can't make myself throw up.

[corrodethefilm]

trust me, you don't want to start.

[geminiblondie]

I also kind of feel like I'm "cheating" when I use diet pills. Like it's not really me that lost the weight, if that makes any sense.

[dancinstar107]

I'm sorry you had a bad experience with the laxatives. I feel like that is my fault = ( I'm sorry darlin.

[geminiblondie]

no, no, no... just because I asked you what laxatives you use doesn't mean it's your fault... I would have done it regardless. And it wasn't that bad... I just would rather not eat, less guilt and more sleep. *hugs*