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[geminiblondie]

Today I had a bagel with fat-free cream cheese (300 cals) and a Healthy Choice frozen dinner (290 cals). I also worked out, of course it's Thursday. I didn't stay for pilates though (should have) just the endurance step aerobics

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[catastroph3]

Mom issues, rough stuff. I remember coming home crying from school when I was junior b/c a teacher told me that I had gained weight, and I told my mom, and she goes, 'well, you have gained alot of weight.' it was possibly the worst thing that she could have said. Not to mention that I still only weighed about 115. Moms are so hard to deal with. I bet that you could ask any chica with an ED, and she'll say that her mom has something to do with it. Or at least alot would say that.
Take care.

[geminiblondie]

I completely agree. I blame her a lot, and then I feel bad for blaming her, because I know I would have body issues anyway.

[dancinstar107]

So I think you know the whole story of how my parents have decided to have nothing to do with me. Well when I went back to Long Island on spring break (to my apartment i have with friends) I happened to be at a concert of my friend's and sister's and my mother saw me. I found out later from my sister, that my mother had commented on how beautiful I was finally looking. I weighed between 80-85lbs then. Which only makes me feel like when I WAS 128 how huge my mother must have really though I was, especially because i'm only about 5'2", especially because I'm a dancer. I hate mothers........I hate parents in general.....

[geminiblondie]

yeah, you DEFINITELY do not deserve how your parents have been treating you. A nurse that I work with and I were discussing parents and how they screw us up the other day and tonight at work she brought me this book to read that her therapist gave her called "Toxic Parents". She said it's good, I'll read it and let you know, maybe you should read it too. She said it helped her to not forgive her parents, but to at least not hate them and understand their motives.

[corrodethefilm]

that is rough, and it's a testament to the fact that no one truly understands what it's like to have an ED unless you've been down that road yourself. one year my mother was crying and pleading with me to stop, to just start taking care of myself because she needed me to. the next, i was trying on clothes (this was post-"recovery") and she pinched my middle and says "what's this? oh, it's pudge." who says that to someone who was 87 pounds a year ago? it completely blows my mind. but you can't take it personally; just remember that simple truth in and of itself. chances are she's not trying to hurt you, even though your having an ED has hurt her and she probably doesn't know how to react. still, it's ironic how even though comments from our mothers are usually not made with malicious intent, they still manage to turn into fuel for our fires anyway.

[geminiblondie]

yeah, sometimes I really do think she's trying to hurt me though. Whenever she's been drinking... that's the only time she intentionally tries to get to me.