So I was looking through my archive because I'm bored and distracting myself instead of studying like I should be doing and I wanted to see what I wrote on Dec 20th a year ago and there was nothing, so I looked at two years ago at the closest date which is the 21st and I realized that I'm feeling pretty much the same way right now as I did exactly ( Read more... )

Oh my goodness last night was an amazing night haha. It reminded me a lot of the water gun fight that the pppers had the summer before we started freshmen year of college. Except last night that was times three ( Read more... )

I hate having to keep feelings bottled up. I wish I could tell people how I really feel. I wish I could scream and cry and embrace.....rrrrgh, I wish I could sleep too, I have a final tomorrow :-/
I'm just afraid of always being misinterpreted or saying things I don't mean like I've done before...poo

Have some respect

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Interesting weekend....good and terrible at the same time. I expressed so much emotion this past weekend I think it numbed me, if that makes sense. I hate that I got so upset, but I'm glad we talked. I'm still confused though and I probably will be for a while. I just don't understand what happened ( Read more... )

So as much as this past week has sucked, it has also had its ups. I went to the play, went to Steve's last night and saw andy and thom and met some other cool people, been seeing the girls a lot more, going to Mark's tonight, found out I'm gonna be performing at this dinner theater thing which should be fun. Oh, I've also lost weight :) Hmmmm ( Read more... )

How I can't wait to go home! I need to be alone now but it doesn't seem like I'm going to have a chance to just be by myself for a while. All I wanna do is have a nice good cry to myself and let it all out, I'm just soooo stressed. And I'm tired of making my decisions based on other people. Or people making decisions for me ( Read more... )

Well I've done some dumb things in my life, but nothing tops this. My temper is just insane when I'm upset, but I refuse to let it show so I write it down and now I've lost the best feeling I've had in a long time. I wish I wasn't so selfish and self absorbed. But see, the thing is, I would have done ANYTHING for him....this is gonna be soooo ( Read more... )

And I need help. I admit it, I REALLY need help. I'm kind of surprised no one has noticed, especially my parents and people at work. I mean, I know my appearance hasn't really changed (except for the additional couple pounds put on), but my habits sure have. I just don't know where to go ( Read more... )