Comments | gemkazoni: i feel your pain, i wrote this song for you~

gemkazoni

i feel your pain, i wrote this song for you~

Jan 23, 2009 16:38

Post anything you like here, but post it anonymously. It can be something big or small, whatever you feel compelled to. Maybe a (1) story, (2) secret, (3) confession, (4) fear, (5) love-the possibilities are endless. Be sure to comment anonymously, though.I am feeling a little sick and a little sad right now for no reason in particular. -___-;; I' ( Read more... )

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"Where are you from?" anonymous January 23 2009, 23:21:17 UTC

I fear I'll be stuck here all my life if I don't get out soon. It hasn't even been three years but that is still far too long for any one place. I tell people that it's because I won't feel alive unless my environment constantly changes. Maybe I'm simply lost. I can never answer the question, "Where are you from?"

Re: "Where are you from?" gemkazoni January 24 2009, 03:27:04 UTC

I've felt like that too. I live in Texas and I'm basically terrified to stay here any longer than I have to. There's something nothing wrong with wanting to move around -- maybe you just haven't found a place that really suits you yet! I'm sure you will, just try to keep looking. :D

anonymous January 23 2009, 23:21:25 UTC

I'm not upset that he's moving. I might actually be glad?

It makes me feel terrible.

gemkazoni January 24 2009, 03:31:57 UTC

Awww, I'm sorry. :(

I suppose my response to this would depend on whether he's sad he's moving and you feel bad for him because you feel glad -- or because you just feel glad that he's moving in general and that makes you feel bad....if that makes sense. XD;

Nonetheless, try not to feel terrible about it! We feel what we feel. I'm sorry I can't be of more help. XD;

anonymous January 23 2009, 23:22:16 UTC

"I want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real."

gemkazoni January 24 2009, 03:32:25 UTC

Me too. <33

anonymous January 23 2009, 23:40:50 UTC

I like helping someone out in need. But when that person keeps telling you over and over, "I'll pay you back for sure." you wonder when the hell that person will do it. It's been almost two years and at this point, I'm not expecting anything anymore now. It sucks 'cause I sure could use the money.

gemkazoni January 24 2009, 03:34:22 UTC

Yeah, that's happened to me. :( And then that person gets all defensive and angry when you bug them about it, and it's like HELLO I KIND OF NEED THE MONEY. I'm sorry! All I can say is to just not do them any more favors. :(

anonymous January 24 2009, 09:45:04 UTC

But when it deals with family and the matter of keeping the roof over our heads, it's difficult 'cause it's unconditional.

anonymous January 24 2009, 00:46:37 UTC

I had a troubling conversation with a long time friend last night. I've always felt a little arguing was necessary in friendships and relationships in general, perhaps since I used to be a complete doormat, especially in regards to this friend. Now they claim that I disagree with them on absolutely everything and do nothing but argue every last thing, because they think I want to show my independence from them.

I honestly don't know what to make of it. I would like to think I'm not entirely reliant on them as I used to be, or some kind of submissive doormat who agreed with everything, but I can never seem to get things on a neutral ground. Now it seems I'm on the opposite end of the spectrum I started from. I'm afraid that agreeing with them a lot is going to put me in the same position it did before. I guess that's kind of stupid, but I thought I'd get it out, anyway.

Unrelated, don't fret about the comments. Especially on LJ, feedback for fics is incredibly sparse. Have you considered posting it on ff.net, too? There needs to be ( ... )

gemkazoni January 24 2009, 03:40:48 UTC

Oh boy, can I relate to this. I don't think it's stupid! I've been the exact same way with best friends I've had. Because in rl, I'm always the meek one who does what other people say, I've seemed to attract bold friends all my life who just want someone who'll back them up and always do what they say without much resistance. :( Who, of course, then get angry anytime I try to argue with them.

I'm really sorry about you argument. I suppose all I can say to help would be to explain to that friend what you said here, that you don't want to be their "doormat" and you're not trying to "show your independence", that you just want to express your opinions freely and that's all. If they're a true friend, I would hope they'd understand.

I hope it helped to get it out. :D

And yeah, I started posting it on ff.net today as well! Thanks for the suggestion anyway, anon. <33