What is it about thursday nights that makes me feel so heavy hearted..........the realization of a loss? the irony of truth? the what would i be doing if I were there right now ( Read more... )

I feel awful tonight.
My heart aches for the good memories once shared....
My heart aches for the loss of a love
the decline of civility and courtesy

It aches for what this song represented
what we once were.

I am so sad tonight.
Deflated heart....
turning point
breaking point
unsettled ground
Sand storm in my eyes
reminding me I am human

It’s hard to breathe ( Read more... )

To be apart ( Read more... )

You make me sick ( Read more... )

Revisting some familiar feelings ( Read more... )

So glad I went to California this summer. I'm finally doing things I said I would do years ago. I'd love to find a cheap piano so I can take some classes. My sould won't rest until I do that ( Read more... )

‎sadness prevails on the eve of a turbulent conversation.....An exit to an unknown as anger fills me up with hurt.. A dead end...a sigh.....a bird chirps at 4am..reminding me that today will be a better tomorrow

Now that summer classes are over it will be great to start doing shit I like. I've never been to Martha's vineyard...I think it's time. I vow not to wait for anyone or rely on anyone.. Can't wait around for others to fulfill my happiness..... travel+creativity = makes me happy.... Life can be that simple.

Feeling like either I'll drown in routine or spontaneously book a trip to Venice CA to see some friends....What holds me down? Maxed credit cards mostly...What propels me to do this? Mind-numbing boredom, desire to enjoy a summer for once and my Fuck it attitude that says just fucking do what you said you would do 10 years ago

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