it's true what they say. when God closes a door, he opens ( Read more... )

god knows how many times i've gone back and forth to this page, trying desperately to come up with something to write, but always ending up empty-handed (or empty-paged, for that matter). i'd stare at the white screen for minutes, then frustratingly give up on coming up with some decent post. but i am back with a vengeance. i finally have something ( Read more... )

there's this biting familiarity to me leaving for the states. can't quite put my finger on it, but the bittersweet taste is just all too familiar. maybe graduating from high school? probably not. losing my tooth is more like it ( Read more... )

writing always does me some good. ought to write more.

i've wasted about half a pound of neurons trying to think of something decent to talk about, something that would fill up this stupid page. and i've just wasted another half realizing that i'm as good as brain dead, and nothing good can come out of this wasted, brainless stupor.

anyhow.

these past ( Read more... )

i just came from a wake.

weird how we call it a wake when the person who it's supposedly for is the farthest thing from awake. i mean, fine, we stay up and all that, but it's not like the wake's for you and me playing tong-its till the wee hours of the morning betting on the stupidest things (farthest we've gone was uling on the face. took me an ( Read more... )

i sit auspiciously on what would become my thrown for four hours. there's the guy writing god knows what on his journal. he flips it over to his other recent entries. Goes back and forth several times. then we see a grimace. probably looking back on what stupid things he's done and thinking how bad horrible pathetic his life has been. i feel for ( Read more... )

a few nuggets to live by:

1. exclusivity is for the motherf*cking people with other motherf*cking people running after them.
2. i'm a god. therefore, i shouldn't compromise.---> these are the very words that kill a relationship. that doesn't mean, however, that you're not meant to be in a relationship. cause someday, there will be someone who wouldn't make ( Read more... )

you pull out all the stops, but never quite make it. it's so sickening it's stick-a-finger-down-my-throat sickening. that's how love works. or at least for now.

i'm a magnet for disaster, always been, chances are, always will be. maybe that's why i've been so single. it's been so long, i lost count already. and it's not just a state of mind, it's a ( Read more... )

i've always had my self-esteem issues, but they were never big enough to make me stop and rethink them. but it took me eighteen years to finally realize that i had to, not without my dad's help. it was an intervention millions of years in the making.

a black sheep. that's how i'd describe myself whenever i'd talk about the fam. there's my uber ( Read more... )

Crusty place, wasted people
Has the makings of a great good indie
Only you’re stuck in the middle
And there’s no happy ending
Bottoms up, egos down
Haunted by irony
By all the rules you toyed with
Pollute your mind
Salvage the heart
Dive head first
Or die your second death

Bottoms up.


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