i just realized he's been thinking about this shit intensely for the last month, trying to decide if we were gonna start you know having a relationship and such blah blah blah and this past month i've put him thru hell. i had numerous breakdowns, was lonley as fuck having all these panic attacks, and geniunely very hard to put up with ( Read more... )

omgz kourtney has a boyfriend lolz

I am writing this, waiting for boy to come back so he can decide if I get to cum. I'm not allowed to right now, and I won't be allowed to for awhile. I'm not even allowed to touch myself. I'm going a bit crazy. He has been telling me what to do for hours, making me hurt myself and pleasure myself and get so close to coming, but I'm not allowed to ( Read more... )

OMFG I want to be fucked. I am writing this entry out of pure, unadulterated sexual FRUSTRATION. I'm going to go insane. Boy has things planned for me and I want them NOW. All I want is to be pushed around, abused, degraded, and fucked mercilessly. Is that so much to ask ( Read more... )

i'm absolutely TERRIFIED of getting on the scale when I get home ( Read more... )

so i don't really know what to think. i understand where geran's coming from. there's no way in hell the numbers don't get hella annoying. but i don't know how else to quantitatively explain where i am. I feel as if he should inately understand the importance of said numbers, and that is unfair of me. there is no reason for him to understand any of ( Read more... )

omg omg omg what the hell was i thinking. popcorn then oreos and milk then pita chips and humus then tortilla cips and guacamole ( Read more... )

ran 3.25 miles, shitty pace etc... but burned 320.1 calories.
did a 30 minute ab workout (Self ab workout dvd)

I had a really long talk with mike last night. I am really lucky to have such a good friend. He is geniunely worried, and makes me feel as if my own worries are justified rather than overdramatic. I let out everything last night. All my worries, all my insecurities, and apologized that he had to sink so low to fuck sommeone as repulsive as me. I ( Read more... )

I feel the need to type, to let something out, but I have no idea what it is. I've noticed that sitting up for too long makes me more hungry, so I'm going to lay down for a bit. I feel strangely calm, and I'm not sure why ( Read more... )