so i got charged today. stupid bitch, waiting til i got home to fuckin charge me ( Read more... )

boy just left. i miss him so much already. i'll see him in about a month and a half, but it's gonna be a hard month and a half! he just means so much to me ( Read more... )

ironic that i've been talking about how easy this is. i cannot focus today and i CANNOT stop thinking about food. UGH

feeling better. boy woke up. he is really goofy.

it's been too easy to stay under 500. my body is behaving most of the time and it's not so hard to turn down food anymore. maybe i'm not doing it right.

why am i displeased at the lack of pain?

so it's sunday now. he goes home tuesday, i go home wednesday. it's gonna be one LONG ASS summer ( Read more... )

i just spent the last 40 minutes crying. wtf. mike was here for awhile, but i "calmed down" and kicked him out, than continued crying. he's not so good at picking up on subtle hints when he's stoned. i can't let him be there for me though. it's not like he'll be there in a week ( Read more... )

apparantly i'm really good at failing finals. i'll fail both of tomorrow's as well, just to round it off. hell, while i'm at it, i'll fuck up next week's too.

god i'm pathetic.

there is so much food in my room i can't think about anything else. i'm going to go insane.

i just sat eating rice and shrimp tempura. fuck. and now my roommate wants me to eat cupcakes. fuck fuck fuck.

NO MORE FOOD TONIGHT!!!

I drank more this weekend than I have the entire semester. Oh man, so much alcohol...

now I'm totally fucked for finals, but I think i'm gonna stop thinking about it and just take a nap.

i hate shopping with thin people. i'm so disgusting.