i am kind of nervous about everything. about jeff leaving, and a lot of peole in my life are just acting...well, chaotic right now. then, i have school strting the 31st, and im sort of afraid to go back. i had a hard year last year, and i just...i dont know, i wannt to graduate. high school was the worst three year (probably soon to be four years) ( Read more... )

im sorry if i think scarification is just another way to say cut. i know you're not depressed or taking something out on your self, but seriously?? its digusting. and the fact that people deny that its sefl inflicction is just plain retarded. at least own up to what you're doing, and dont pretend its not some way to take out harbored anger out on ( Read more... )

i wish that i lived in the 1960's. somebody find me a time machine.

since i am already born, i guess i can just pretend i live in the sixties.

thanks jeff. you honestly need to be here. i just want to say that im really happy to be with you, and i miss you, even though we just saw eachother like twelve hours ago. thanks for everything ( Read more... )

hi there, im going on vacation in aboooot a week. im excited. and pretty fucking happy. i miss becca insanley, and its only been a week. im pathetic. and also half asleep....so.....happy..

i was so happy,and in theses past couple days, evrything had to come flooding back to me, like some random cruel joke. i wish it would just fucking stop, and i could just be okay again. i miss my jeff...

right now, a few months ago, i thought it would be blissful. but, now that everyone has officially graduated, i feel kind of lost, and lonely. Yes, there are people that i am happy to let go of, and i'm very glad they're gone, but, the person that i wanted to leave the most, is the one that i want to be here, skipping class with me, the most. Yeah ( Read more... )

yeah! fucket! FUCK IT! shit shit day, i just want to bleed or something. i dont know. people at my fucking job don't like me, and all the people who say that they will come visit me at work NEVER FUCKING DO. its not inconvient to get ice cream while making me seem like not a friendless loser, is it? i've been feeling ugly recently. i hate it. but ( Read more... )

sometimes, i wish i looked like this...


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so, everything is doing fine, honestly this will be a boring entry. i just want to eat chocolate. but, you know, i've been trying to call becca for like three weeks, thinking that i'll leave her alone when sean is here, but honeslty what the shit. if she honestly doenst want to talk, she should answer, and tell me, hey im busy and i don't want to ( Read more... )