hey so this week got so much better thanks to one silly marine. how i love my cj and boys sometimes. my "boyfriend" is now working at mcds. and i can wait til feb 17-20. they will be the best 96 hours of my lfie if a certain love of mine really does visit. i hope it goes well, all i want righ tnow is to be held and kissed and loved by him ( Read more... )

wow i havent written in my journal for so long. it jsut seems like ive been keeping all my feelings inside. hmm lets see, last week was amazing, probably one of the best weeks ivehad ina while. im starting to see no future for myself, kinda sad eh, but yeah. I mean everyone knows where they want to apply what htey want to do, ad im jsut a bump ( Read more... )

its thanksgiving...HAPPY THANKSGIVING ( Read more... )

wow i havent felt this wonderful in forever. not only did i see my love john three times today, but i saw BRIAN. god i miss him like whoa. it was weird tho, both of them there at once. i felt bad cuz i kind of jsut left john, but brian has such a huge part of my heart. i hugged him so much and he so lost his pot belly. i felt bad for john. i ( Read more... )

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its kidna corny but my GM's last day was today before he got transfered. im gonan miss him. the little thing dont hit u until later. but liek when we were closign irealized i would never get to see him again, and like he wouldnt drive me home, and like no more im lovin it stuff, no more dave thomas jokes. i love him. hes my favorite im gonna ( Read more... )

mmmm today waa sa very nice crisp autumny day. i got alot accomplished, and relxed, and chilled with kat something i havent done in forever, and i talked with my john, jsut me and him for liek 4 hours no lie. he is suchan awesome kid, and im fallnig bad again. DAMNIT! but seriously like we jsut had the most random conversation andit was awesome ( Read more... )

dude i havent written in here in forever. basically live has been to busy and hectice and full of work and sleep and mobil and lonliness and autumn leaves and elections and college that just doesnt exist. that was a lnog ass sentence, and probably grmmatically incorrect in so many ways. anyway, im updating becuase i found a cd of my old "my ( Read more... )

so this afternoon ended up being really good, infact i wa sin a good mood all day, and i dont know where it came from. i was so hyper and jsut crazy,and i lvoed it ( Read more... )

ive decided im bidding my obsessions, well my unhealthy ones goodbye. that means no more cj. no more caring for brian in that way. and that leaves me open. im still really lonely, but o well. im puttign that aside for now, cuz i jst cant deal ( Read more... )