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really seeing
really seeing how right i always am with all these ridiculous journal entries. I can lie to myself as much as i want and the person who wrote all these entries can see through my bullshit. It is kind of sad in a way. To think I am over something, when clearly I have just buried it, buried you. This seems to be what I do quite often. So nothing ever ( Read more... ) -
an island-a heavy lid
i am so alone. i miss my boyfriend josh. this is the set-up sam, this will probably be the only journal entry for a long god damn time. i can only hope. Joshua Charles Barfuss- 23 Dominos. i love the motherfucker. i haven't seen him in 5 days and it is killing me. correct type. perfect type. sweetest manboy. i am alone here. i am the fucking wind. ( Read more... ) -
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fucking pudding cup. are you shitting me? -
resolution
no more dan.
nope.
guitar hero with dan. yes.
but no more dan. -
shit
i am so tired. so tired. of shit. boys' night out? wtf is that? is that something only married couples have to arrange? or is it some warped joke of a teenaged college boy? oh. what i wouldn't give for some companionship. for fucks sake....... -
group hug confession useless talent number one
i got involved with this guy right into college because i always need someone ( Read more... ) -
silly me
somehow i work it out in my head that rereading someone's myspace/facebook profile will make something happen or make me have an epiphany, but i'm just dumb. i shouldn't really be getting involved with a klepto anyways. . . a hot klepto. i need sex. i can't wait until spring break.. i need it. god damn.
much un-needed <3's for paul
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So i'm sitting here listening to music while other things are slowly going downhill. .. . very slowly.. . like why can't something horribly drastic happen? not just slow rolling to my death? i'm sure all will be alright, once i'm in the right mind set. i feel like i'm a loser sitting here at this computer and waiting for people to call me. o man. -
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is reinventing yourself that difficult? i feel like i could slip into my old self at anytime. it's depressing. i feel like i need to keep conquering or something and cut all contact with others. cut my losses. life would be simple then. very simple. i'm listening to this mix tape i made. its making me depressed. i hope the guy likes it. pathetic. ( Read more... ) -
pathetic
i feel like writing and this is my only outlet ( Read more... )