breaking the spell. 1999 documentary.
if you can find it. see it.
i wish i was there!!!
too bad i was too young.
too bad
i saw iron and wine too!!!

fuck you.
i hate people

i cant open up

i really cant write shit. i have already writen about two pages and then i just deleted it.
holy shit. i hate it.

i know you wont stay here very long.
you will always leave me for someone stronger, taller, smarter, richer, i guess anything better.

so i have a very sweet balck eye and bloody knukles
i loves my life

lindypoodle666 has my heart
i hate her

some people think im lucky
i just think im selfish
some people might say im happy
but im not
some poeple might say that i have everything going for me
but i dont

i am as unhappy as you are

too happy to write in this
hmm i dont feel like the year was a waste
i found out alot about mysef and i think im a completly different person that i was when this year started
it sucks that im like this but i like a bit of stuff
there are still stuff that i dont like about myself
i have to press peoplesbuttons
sorrry guys

so happy right now
i feel like a new person

so i started to put up the barrier because i feel like i need too.