who knows where the summer went. it is long gone. I heard a commercial for couple of the haunted houses downtown on the radio tonight. I love haunted houses... I just wish they were cheaper and in a safer neighborhood. maybe I can manage to go to one of them this year :D

it's only a few weeks into school and I'm already behind. I need to just stay ( Read more... )

but it should! lol.. okay, not really. I've actually been trying much harder lately to keep my finances on track... and I feel like the world is against me.

I forgot about my car tags. got it covered.
had to tackle the cost for dash's birthday party. done.. finances recalculated and everything on track.

pay the summer expenses.. rent, daycare, phone ( Read more... )

so much garbage going on lately.

let's see.. mom has entered another bitch phase. who knows why or what triggered it. mowed the lawn for her. spent almost three hours working on weeds which basically own the back yard. and she comes storming around the side in the back yelling at me for throwing a rock at lily. seriously?!! where the fuck did that ( Read more... )

time to turn over a new leaf. good bye rukh. the name change is official. the new era has begun..

i went to my friends page and filtered out the two communities i have.. and it seems noone is around any more. no recent entries by anyone. it seems a bit sad. i am not around often but i guess i refuse to give up my silly old journal here. it's history... my history. there were other journals before it.. but this journal has been here over 10 ( Read more... )

it's late.. but i suppose it always is when i bother to post. lot of good things going on in life. the vanilla side that is. having trouble focusing on my school class. need to get back on track with it asap. really missing the lifestyle. craving some contact there. have to open in the morning. suppose i should try and sleep. *xo ( Read more... )

i am so effing irritated. I spent money to get my damn car jumpstarted this afternoon cause it wasnt working when mom and i tried. Then i have the battery tested.. they tell me its working good but they will sell me one if it will MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. How does wasting money make me feel better? Go to work with a freshly charged and tested battery ( Read more... )

just feel totally defeated. so tired of it all. so tired of being told im unappreciative. so tired of trying. not to mention all the money i apparently wasted on her.

three weeks ago i gave her $1200 for who knows what.. "upkeep". spent another $100 on clothes. and a brand new computer for $540. what a fucking waste.

no matter what i do her view of ( Read more... )

how quite helpful it can be venting to a blank screen. life always gets so busy and i forget over time. noone to blame but me for that.

had another blow out fight with mom. i know a part is due to being caged up in the house with the snow. and a part is due to her frustration with the house. nothing much i can do on that front. it's still not right ( Read more... )

i was just noting a few minutes ago how it was 10:31 on 10/31. it's been a really long day.

whole body is aching. i was sound asleep and mom woke me up to go run out all the trash. too tired to feel grouchy. lil ibu and back to bed now. night.

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