we aren't supposed to die at our age ( Read more... )

yesterday kraig and i had been together for a year.

it really doesn't make sense to me.

but i love him.

i really do.

the rain is fucking gorgeous.

i really needed a day like today. a dark and dreary day with massive amounts of rain.

it's so reviving.

i want to crawl into a bed with kraig and watch movies all day or just lay there listening.

too bad it's not cooler.

you can't have everything tho, can you?

The last 7 days or so have been really tough on me and basically just sucked. I guess I had this illusion in my head that although I was the only non-legal of age drinker ra in this building, in this area for that matter, and all my friends including my boyfriend drink that some how everything would be just dandy. But nothing was okay. I don't even ( Read more... )

i'm officially an ra.

the freshmen came in today, and i'm on duty til 2 am. it will be a 20 hour day today.

i can't wait til sunday, the upperclassmen come. and kraig.
monday classes start.

this year is going to be a lot.
good.

mmmmm... when i first got to school today it was pretty rough. I get handed a HUGE binder full of the things i have to do and learn. and then I was basically in the building by myself. I really didn't think I could do this anymore ( Read more... )

I CAN GO TO SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!

I LOVE THAT MAN!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

and i go back to school in exactly a week!!!!!!!

Could it be? Is it possible?

Oh God, I think I found someone who understood my loan situation and is fixing it all for me!

I hated the finacial aid office yesterday, and today I think I am in love with one man there.

It should not be this hard to attend school.

I've been reading a lot. I have come to the conclusion that most times when it comes to someone being truly happy others around them will be caused unhappiness. But if you are to feel guilt for those you know you have wronged in some way by being happy, then you are no longer carefree, which takes away from your own happiness. I do not think that ( Read more... )

yesterday was my birthday. the only good thing about turning twenty is that there is less than a year now until i turn twenty-one ( Read more... )