Saturday I hung out with Julia and Mara and we went to the waterfall. Julia and I went to the cliffs in Pismo. Julia went home and Alyssa came over. We went and got Taco bell and then we went to Lexi's party ( Read more... )

Someone asked me if broken down, my writing is just a way of me saying I'm sad, in a much more complicated way. And that's when I realized that almost everything I say is that basic idea in a twisted complex way that only I understand. And I also realized I do that because I find consolodation for myself in the idea that if they want the surface ( Read more... )

There's nothing left to do with it, every route has been subdued. It's in the quiet and it'll catch up, just when you stop to think. It's us that take the time to free ourselves from day-to-day, that'll find it there, in the silence that envelops the noise. In the clarity we forget is even there. It's inbetween our obstacles, we see through it and ( Read more... )

Yesterday I went shopping with my Mom and then I went to farmers and hung out with Garrett, Andy and Leo on his break, then saw a few people I haven't talked to in a while and then I went bowling with Jon, Max, Garrett, Alli and her friend, Cassy. Then we went to Jon's and played a lot of Guitar Hero ( Read more... )

I'm fucking pissed off. I'm also ( Read more... )

It's not fair. I was doing so fucking good, I was finally dealing ( Read more... )

Conversational crisis, locked up and letting go.
Resurrected happenings we tied to the undertow.
Shutting up pupils and closing down minds,
Remembering nothing means nothing to hide.

Freedoms lack answers, we've yet to decide,
What's better for us will corrupt us in time.
Open and stupid, bright eyed and naive,
An accomplishment in disregarding

Today was alright. I don't understand people.. but whatever. I never will.

Re-cap: Hung out with Pat, then Jon and Alli, then Jon left Alli at Mervyn's, so we couldn't hang out with them anymore. Hahah. Watched some TV, visited Leo at work, watched some Lost then went to Jon's and played Guitar Hero and watched Flight of the Conchords.

Tonight was better than I thought it would be ( Read more... )

I really need to disappear again. I haven't in a while but I need to I need to. I hate people. They are all so fucking dissapointing, so self-absorbed, so full of complete and utter bullshit.

It's definately time to learn to live with myself so that I can come back and maybe try to live with people as well.