i've been updating my journal. alot lately. i think it s cause i'm usingit as some kinda therapy. not like its working. but while i'm ranting i feel a little better ( Read more... )

lets talk about college for a minute ( Read more... )

so my friends are insane and i love then so much ( Read more... )

screw TCNJ, i don't need you.

you just denied someone with a 106 in an ap class. get out of my face. i don't want you snotty shit anyway. i'm going to do fine without you.

i had a terrific day and your letter won't ruin that.

i was going throuh ljs and something caught my eye: "What happened to all the normal people??"
good question. what has happened to everyone? everything has given into "the madness" as gross and i like to call it.

as a friend of mine asked today "what the hell is happening over there is jersey, seems like everyone is loosing it"
nj- what's up?

it's amazing how i could dropping a million hints and you STILL arent getting the message. forget it. i'm screaming out for you here and you don't hear a thing.

i'm sorry i'm such a fucking burden to you. you should've taken MY advice and things would have been easier. i CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE.

so i woke up to the weirdest sensation this morning, i woke up feeling like i had no idea who he is or was, and that he is completely out of my life. and i'm not going to lie. that scared me and i hated that feeling. i guess everything offically slipped away. funny thing is that i dreamed about him last night.
i want him back in my life.

take 2/1's rant. and just repeat it over and over again, add every bad feeling.. and that was my day. i almost cried about a million times. i'm so disappointed in myself. i can't even take it.
i can't focus on anything. i feel like i'm loosing it.

*crosses fingers* PLEASE let tomorrow be better.

no i'm not ok. i'm trying though. when i think it gets better i relapse.

god i hate myself.

so friday was my senior year military ball. tons of fun. i shanked around until tracy came over and did my hair. i sped over to gross', did two pics and we went over to the reniassance room. did the socializing thing, strated the oh6 chant with hobaz at the senior pic, ate and me and ey ruined each other's drinked. danced the senior dance with ( Read more... )