Man, I love having "invisible" problems like mental health issues.

Not only do you look completely normal, you can't even (reliably) tell people what you're going through because a lot of people straight-up don't believe your problems are real.

This ride sucks. I want to get off now, please!

I am very lonely and very tired.

Stuff's been pretty good lately. I just wanted to mention that because I usually only write here when I'm really pissed off.

I can't enjoy anything because I'm overwhelmed. I'm behind on work, because I have so many other things to do - switch car registration to New Jersey, get my passport, invoice some clients, do a million things around the house, visit whichever people I have to visit this month, get prescriptions filled, and everything else ( Read more... )

There isn't much I hate more than the holiday season. I hate Halloween, and I hate pretty much everything until April. These months are now living hell and I do nothing but drive around to shit I don't want to be anywhere near because obligationsI really should have just bought a house on the West Coast because I love our families but Jesus Christ ( Read more... )

I've been a real asshole to some people lately and I'm not even sure it's the wrong thing to do. I think it's frequently been the right call.

One thing stays the same: I'm honest. I'll be an asshole but I'm not underhanded. Just don't really do that.

Sometimes I scroll back through the things I post online and they're so bleak! They're very honest posts but it's also true that I'm much more likely to post when I'm angry.

Things are good, mostly. I swear!

Closing The Book, Maybe. So I think I've/we've finally started to close the book on a shitty thing that happened last year. TL;DR version ( Read more... )

All I do, nearly every minute of every day, is do shit that I don't enjoy ( Read more... )

Someday, anybody I care about will want to do something I actually care about.

I like biking, tennis, sports, art, reading, making things, watching movies, and seeing bands play.

They mostly like paying a lot of money to go to restaurants, or bars. That's their biggest rush in the entire world: whoa dude I went to that place and ate that thing! ( Read more... )

At my verrrrrry best I'm pretty average looking. And for most of my life I've definitely not been at my very best, to put it nicely.

I've learned some things in the process. I've learned, firsthand, how differently human beings treat somebody that's grossly unattractive versus how they treat somebody that's merely inoffensively average looking ( Read more... )

Life marches on. Actually it kind of tumbles on. Like if you drove a moving van filled with pots and pans up to the top of a mountain and then tipped it over and just sort of watched the kitchenware tumble, bang and crash down the mountainside ...forever ( Read more... )