so im grounded... for waht you ask... silly reason really. i didnt tell my parents where i was off to for the better half of the day. they took my little car away :( and im unable to go out for the rest of the week. its ok though. i will be destructive hee hee lets see how fast the couch burns away. what sucks the most is not being able to hang out ( Read more... )

being single for oh so long (over years.... literally) can really get lonely. :(

everything is out of place. before last night i was happy. well at least i had someone who cared for me, but that all changed last night. seems to me im not worth it. i have kept alot of things to myself. i dont write it down, nor do i put it on here, but all of this holding back has caused me to break. i dont want to yell at him but he hurt me. im ( Read more... )

for you who call me ... i gave my cellphone away. oh and i dont have a car anymore.

i am not myself today.

boys ... they only use me. how stupid of me to think he ever cared.

wow (monotoned) ... everything got deleted from this computer. all my precious pics ereased. all those memories lost. oh well it was bound to happen. hmmm im so sad right now. its so confusing. someone new is in my life and i like it <3felix<3 hes a great kid. hes so quiet and he keeps to himself. great kid. sally called me today. only talked to ( Read more... )

today today today.
hmm i need to learn how to sleep early. i keep going to sleep at midnight or past midnight, but never before. i find myself sleeping in all my classes and a big grouch.

a friend is in need of help and i cant help because im making things worse. most of their grief is because of me. i dont know why. i have what i need financially yes, but i lack something much more important than money. i lack love. i give my heart to those who say they care and next thing you know they dissapear for weeks. whats the use in caring ( Read more... )

woa yesterday i bought $300 worth of clothing. and today i bought some steve madden shoes and i added on to my collection of button up shirts. grrr today was incredibly boring. haha i noticed today that i scare boys away :). im so cool haha jk. :(.