give-and-take games with my heart. he plays what she plays. but he has a way of making it all better. after the break up on friday, i never wanted to speak to him again. seems my suspisions were correct. he had another girl. yes of course i was heart broken. maybe more than ever. but im forgetting how to feel. seems these heartbreaks are so common ( Read more... )

so i gave him a second chance. now 3 days later and hes giving me signals. signals of not wanting to be with me again. so i made yet another mistake. again my heart has to take this torture. i have to wait til midnight for him to once again break my heart. once again i will fall into the hole of single depression. i cant win in any situation. they ( Read more... )

yesterday was my birthday. yesterday my love left me.

javier handcuffed me to a file cabinet at work and then farted on my foot. such torture oh such torture. new carpet smells bad. random? yes. unnecessary? nope.

was at warped tour yesterday. pretty extreme stuff. the rain sucked. i was completely soaked from head to toe. but all worth it. got there late. 3:30. tbs was signing at 3:30 so we ran from the gate to the back where the half pipe was but too late. the guy cut us off. told us "this is it". that bastard. saw a bunch of friends. i finally met the ( Read more... )

good day for a warped tour.
away for the day. away away from my prison.

she asked me to kill myself. oh what a mother. it hurts to think about it. but they say talking about it helps. so i am. i cant get help. i tried. but i get in trouble. i ask them everyday to help me. but they turn away and i can hear them from the distance shouting out at me how much ive fucked up and how i am a fuck up. in my point of view and to ( Read more... )

when worst came to worst, josh and i got caught making out in my room. we didnt really get caught in the action but my dad went looking for me upstairs and he went through my siss room to get to mine and we had time to just jet out of my room in to the living room but we couldnt play it off. my dad was pissed. thought i was in there loosing my ( Read more... )

thats what my life is, a repeat of yesterday. my lj is lame. every entry is lame. and all i can do is complain. that rhymed **eerie**. im a good girl i promise. only if they could understand. im so confusing. try to guess what ill say next. dont worry. ill say nothing. because im done.

seems im full of boredom. i keep getting into trouble for the little things. and i got myself into a huge dilemma. i dont care really. it was bound to happen. i was waiting for this day long before school ended. just something my little(not really) head does on its own. my parents are completely nuts. there is not changing them. im not allowed to ( Read more... )