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[ghostsinsheets]

i realize now that i should have left this city the second i had the money and the freedom of knowing i had no real ties to anything here. i know a lot of people would try and argue otherwise, but sticking around never gets you anything good. at the very least, it never gets me anything good. if your gut tells you to get the fuck out of dodge, the

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[sabdek]

long time no talk

[ghostsinsheets]

that is very true. how are things?

[sabdek]

very... strange. i went up to alaska to work for a cannery, and it took me 4 weeks to realize I was allergic to fish scales.

i now have haggard scars all over my arms from the rashes. and I had a pretty toned body until I drank it all away. :(

[ghostsinsheets]

ahahaha, really? that's kind of amazing. except for the scars, anyway.

also, beer guts are totally sexy.

[bethyss18]

if your gut tells you to get the fuck out of dodge, the only logical reaction is to listen to it, or else you'll spend a lot of time feeling trapped.

and, in some cases, second guessing all your choices soley because you made one that haunts you. staying somewhere for nothing makes no sense really. but everybody does it. it's not even a mistake, really...it just happens. it's just another realization that comes too late. but they tell me that if a person really wants to get out, they will. it sounds far too optimistic. i think i'll just trust you on this one.

[ghostsinsheets]

i guess it does just happen, but it's really hard not to look at it as a complete fuck-up when it feels like the worst decision you ever made. anytime i have ever stayed anywhere for other people, i have come to hate myself for it. you'd think that would keep me from doing it, but no, that would make too much sense, i suppose. be too easy.

[ghostsinsheets]

on the run? i wish.

[ghostsinsheets]

don't tempt me, chappy.

[iheartyourdeath]

I was wondering where you went! i missed your entries!

[ghostsinsheets]

i didn't go anywhere, really, just sort of got sucked into reality (or, something like it) for a while. not too cool of a scene, by the way. how are you?

[iheartyourdeath]

im good. just working like craaazy so i can go to europe next summer.

[ghostsinsheets]

whereabouts in europe are you headed? or are you just going to travel around and visit a bunch of cities? either way, totally awesome!

[awarinsideofme]

The sounds like a quote from a movie. But I completely agree with you. When you're right, you're right on.

But what's around anywhere else if you were to move? What's pulling you to some other place? Chances are, whatever it is that might be wanting you to get the fuck off of this island, it won't be there a year or so from now. And if not time, then the allure of it will dull down.

Been there, done that. But I neglected to get a tee shirt, so I guess I'll be in this boat with you until the day I die.

Good luck to you though.

[ghostsinsheets]

my life's a movie, isn't it?

there's nothing anywhere else except people i've yet to meet and streets i've never walked down. but maybe that's enough, maybe different people and different streets are all i really need to feel like a different person or have a different perspective. i don't know. all i know is that anytime i think something on this island is going to be good for me, it blows up in my face in the most ridiculous of ways for the most idiotic reasons.

and even without the personal nonsense, i just can't stand this island. anything good about it is slowly but surely overshadowed. i can't stand the assholes that populate it, the fact that every unprotected section of woods is being chopped down to build bigger, more expensive houses so even more douchebag people can move here and add to the congestion. i've hated this place my whole life, it's just that i'm not always weighed down by this feeling of urgency about leaving. until, you know, i'm reminded of what a shithole it is, for whatever reason.

[awarinsideofme]

Yes, you're life is a movie. My sister needs a character for her next drama, and you are totally the star.

Aside from that, you have yet another point. Maybe you were meant to be a traveller. (By the way: Ireland Vacation!) And that's completely cool too. And if you still have means and money, then go on adventures. If you end up loving it, after ... say 3 days, move there. What's really stopping you now??

[ghostsinsheets]

really, the only thing stopping me is a lease. and i guess getting a visa. heh.