what is going on?

[ghostuponastage]

I don't know what the hell is going on. Aida got mad and called me a bitch today. I told her that hurts when she says things like that to me. And I just didn't want her to be mad at me. So I was talking to her online, and she said she didn't want to talk about it. I asked her if we could talk and she said she didn't feel like it (nothing new

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[ianthine]

well, i guess you said everything you wanted to in this. i must apologize for my language last nite. i do feel bad for calling you names but at the moment i didn't realize now alex that i hold more anger towards you then i thought. you can wish all your pain and anger on me i wont mind dealing with it. i've suffered enough in the past 2 years that a little more suffering will only do my heart good. this is why we couldnt have a relationship alex. we talked to each other in the cruelest ways. was that love? i dont think so. love isnt name calling, hitting, abusing. i am sorry though that my decision was so sudden maybe if i had done it differently i wouldnt have hurt you as badly as i have now. i just didn't want to go through it anymore. i understand that you are upset because i decided to do things with Walberto that it took me a great deal of time to do with you. yet, there is a connection between he and i that you and i never had

help me understand...

[ghostuponastage]

okay, well i know already that we can't be together and you're not going to come back to me any time soon. so what i really want to talk about now is the future, so let's just let go of the past. You have realize that because I care so much and because I know you are so fragile right now is why I have been trying my hardest not to say awful things to you, just as you have done to me. If we want to be friends, you can't be saying things like that to me. You have said and done all these nasty things the past few weeks, and all I do is swallow my pride

[tiredangelchild]

Alex, you need to stop writing to the computer... we're gonna hangout this weekend, just you and me, and talk and u can do what u have to do. You need to realize that you two were never in love and that there is something more serious than you realize happening here. This still has an element of fairy tale to it, which scares me because it's not real. Without judging anyone, it's clear to most people who know you and know what's gone on that this relationship was the most unhealthy thing we've ever seen. It went too far and as hard as this is, it's what both of you need. Regardless of who did what to hurt each other it's done and you're not in love (regardless of whether you ever were or not) and it's good it's over. We love you Alex, and we're glad you're home.

[ghostuponastage]

the thing is i know we can't be together... but I still care a lot about her because we have been through so much together. I just want to be her friend.
Don't forget, band practice Sunday.