if the weakness of someone is based on how they react to everything people say then my bones are chalk.

- helen.

Dear fans and friends,
We appreciate the support you all have given us. Unfortunately, we are sad to say that USW has officially disbanded. After rising tensions and diasgreements among us we feel that it is time to end this band and pursue other endeavors.

Rob (the founder of this band) is currently looking for a new band to play ( Read more... )

i know this entry is not private, but it's to tell all of you something important ( Read more... )

i'm done. so done.

this journal is private until further notice.
nobody gives a fuck.
what i feel right now goes so much deeper than any of you know.
i'm losing my novelty.
my batteries are running dry.
this problem has gone nearly medical.

goodbye.

- helen.

facing a lot of things tomorrow.

so i plan to dress cutely to do so.

look out, world.

- helen.

i'm too terrified to walk out of my own front door ( Read more... )

no vienna.
no prague.

even though we're performing at carnegie hall in new york,
god i'm upset.

the only thing i was looking forward to next summer.

one disappointment after the other. seriously.

- helen.

p.s.- another sleepless night. i'm so fucked in every aspect of school.

had another breakdown yesterday.
the worst one in a long time, since... october 15th.
journals are wonderful things.

many triggers set it off, two of them being my severe lack of sleep and the mental health test i took just prior.
reflecting so much on good and bad things to answer the questions would do it.
the others are known and unknown.

not sure ( Read more... )

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no.
NO.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

after i do fuck tons of work and rehearse, i'm going to phantom of the opera tonight.
i'm actually REALLY excited, i haven't seen it live since i was... nine? ten?
but until all of this shit gets done, i'm in freak out mode.

serious question: you all see how i am every day. do you think i'm creepy?

- helen.