im so hungry but my stomach is doing somersaults so i cant eat. i wish i didnt get so attached. i mean im quite known for that and thats prolly my biggest downfall. i try and mnake myself happy instead of letting myself find happiness and im jsut a dork. i feel bad for hurting people that didnt deserve that and i dont knwo what to do to fix things ( Read more... )

well i had a party last ntie and hte only word i can think to describe it is crazy. shit was so messed up lol and there was loads of drama. me n scott are taking a break and gonna see how things owrk. well yesterday i finally got to meet the elusive carmelo and he came with jr. i got to know them so well throughout the night and no we like totally ( Read more... )

its almost six in the morning and that monica is sleeping on my bed. im kinda tired but i want to the see the sunrise, even if it is by myself. jakub and andy left an hour ago but it seems like they've been gone for an eternity.so yeah 2nite was pretty fun. scott came over and it was nice to actually get some alone time wiht him even if nothign did ( Read more... )

yesterday was one of the best days in my life i got to kiss one of the most important person that i like.. hes so dead sexy.. i really cant wait to run thought the halls next friday you know how fun that is going to be becuz i wont have to wear my fucking brace, and i get to see scott more. hes so cute and i think im really falling for him. he is ( Read more... )

yeah so im on the fone with my scottie pooh lol woah whered that come from lol. im so glad i met you. my mom is rationing me on food b/c she thinks im fat~what a bizocth. yeah sooooooo my visonis blurry. and theres this one thing i really want to tell scott but im not sure i should b/c i dont know if its to early to be feelin this. i mean i really ( Read more... )

yeah so things could have been better today but what ya gonna do. guys are so confusing and i wish people could just get along but shit happens and yeah. so i stole this from dan and im putting it in my lj lol so comment it up all! peace ( Read more... )

yeah so live has been better than i would have expected. i am starting to open up more an meet new people. I met this new kid scott and he seems really cool and i started talkin to matt whos in my class and have never talked to before~pretty neat lol. this weekend kinda sucked but friday was fun, corrie(sp?) andy and jakub came over and yeah just ( Read more... )

brandon this entry is for you. the past nine months i have dedicated my life to you and tryin to keep us together. You dont know how bad it hurt to move out here and be away from you and there was nothing i could do to stop it. I have tried with all my heart to bring you back to me and it just hasnt seemed to work. You have a new life with new ( Read more... )

its crazy how much better life can get when you just accept the things that happened and realize you cant change them. this past month has been difficult but ive mad it through. its been 3 weeks since ive been to school and sadly i have to go back. i dont want to tho but theres alot of things we have to do no matter how much we dont want to. Well i ( Read more... )

im getting to thinking that this live journal thing is getting old. i mean if you want to know my business youd ask. so i dont know when i'll up date again. well in moving i found out who my true friends were and it was not really any1 from elk grove and it took this to show me, sad isnt it? well brandon i thought ud always be here but i guess no ( Read more... )