So if you haven't figured by now I suffer from metal illness. I have clinical depression and a chemical imbalance. Over the last two months I have gone from my highest high to my lowest low. Yesterday was my lowest I have ever been. If you look back over the years of this journal, it is a good history of my long history with this. I am on a good ( Read more... )

When you loose your mind, its not anything tangible, that you can hold on to, or just pick back up. That old saying "if you fall off a horse, pick yourself back up and keep riding", does not apply to mental health. I am making a mix tape that best describes my metal state these days. I figure people don't want to hear about it, and its a bummer to ( Read more... )

I was feeling pretty bad. I still feel bad. But I went to a party with some firends. I got to hang out a lot with Danny, and I really haven't really spent much time with him lately, or most people for that matter. It was really nice. Danny and I had a really nice time, he isn't edge anymore so we just went and partyed. It was super fun ( Read more... )

I really feel out of life these days. Like endless drag of days just pass me by. Not much is really making me that happy right now. I am just feeling so down, like I can't really get much of anything done latley. It is like whatever drive and confedence I had had built up since new years has just been pulled up from under my feet. I feel ugly and ( Read more... )

I started class at UMBC. It is the advanced Recording class. Today was the first day. It seemed pretty ok. I am at a great disadvanted because I don't own pro tools and I don't have a body of work from other classes to work from. I am going to need to get on top of my game to keep up. The studio's they have are pretty great. There was also some ( Read more... )

Yesterday was pretty amazing ( Read more... )

Sebadoh > you

I am so fucking happy it is over.

So we had the first Double Dutch show. It was pretty ok. I messed up a lot, but hey it was the first show, I was really nervous. I could say that it was best first show that any band I have been in had had. I was worried that people wheren't into it, but we seem to be the talk of the town, or it least from what I heard ( Read more... )

So while were were playing a show on Saterday somebody went up to a friend of mine and started talking shit about me. I can't really think of anything I do that would really piss people off. I am generaly a good person. What do I do that really pisses people off, or gets people to really loath me. Can somebody fill me in so I can try to become a ( Read more... )