Happy Birthday to you,
                happy birthday to you, 
                happy birthday to the
                best friend anyone could
                ever have! ever!  
                Happy Birthday to you!

Happy day to you my dear friend!  I love you more than you 
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self inflicted pain and sorrow
hoping for a better tomorrow
still it comes with no relief
my heart is filled with molten grief
fallen tears are caught in vain
no end in sight for this pain
wasted hours are spent in gloom
waiting for impending doom
going through the day to day
trying to feel and trying to pray
god please help me in my need
believe me and hear ( Read more... )

Last year I posted my first entry on favorite giggles. And to add to my collection of silly entries I am writing about smells.  So many smells and so much to tell.  I have so many favorite smells. A lot of them have to do with my dad, babies and the beach.  Strong memories are attached to smells like Old Spice, Doublemint gum and even sunblock.  My ( Read more... )

I have to get a new job. I hate job shopping, it's like dating only worse. You spend a lot of time filling out paperwork and telling people about yourself and then it might not even work out. I mean at least on a date you get a meal or a movie!  I usually stay at a job for a long time, like years.  This last place I worked I spent 2+ years trying ( Read more... )

Kiss, Kiss. I must admit this seems kinda funny (and I stress kinda), but my daughter has the Kissing disease-mono.  She came to me and told me that her glands were swollen and that they hurt, then she started running a fever.  I said -half joking-maybe you have mono, the kissing disease. We received the confirmation of my diagnosis today. She'll ( Read more... )

The sun has set on yet another day 
this feeling of blue has not gone away
day after day I wait and I will
to no avail, my pain is still real
It suffocates me throughout the day 
and begs me to let it have it's way
I still refuse, as I ponder a cure
living my life with a heart that is pure
eve is when I ask my maker
is it my time or is it for later
I go to ( Read more... )

I cannot shake these blues. I have been sad, depressed, blue or whatever you wanna call it now for months.  I have a good couple of days and then WHAM! and I never even see it coming.  I've gone to a doctor and he gave me some anti depressants, but I haven't taken them yet. I think I'm afraid of what they won't let me feel. I also started seeing a ( Read more... )

Packing for vacation has to be one of my all time favorite things to do. I know it sounds geeky, but it's one of those things that make me happy. First I pick out about as many outfits as there are days that we'll be gone for each person. Then I pick two or three  dinner outfits per person.  I usually have to coordinate colors because I like us all ( Read more... )

So sad to be me
poor, pitiful me
alone on the inside and crowded on the out
friends and family they gather
but it doesn't seem to matter
sad and low with tears of salt
some on the inside, some on the out
not pretty enough...for me
not smart...will never be
poor pitiful me
truly happy, can never be
sad and pitiful permanently
so sad to be me

I have been watching what I eat lately and apparently watching what every body else eats too. I'm really quite shocked at how badly people eat. So much crap. A lot of my friends don't even cook anymore. They just make something frozen or eat out. A lot! McDonalds seems to be a favorite, next probably pizza. Oh, Im not saying I'm not quilty ( Read more... )