I don't know what is going on, and it is really effecting my days where I can't function and have no energy. I don't know I think when I try to go to sleep and put my head down, all the anxiety rushes in and I start to think about everything. Thinking too much really blows. SO instead of sleeping I lay in bed with my eyes wide open staring at the ( Read more... )

My life is chaos. So what do I do at odd hours of the night...or right now morning? I think. I think, think, and think some more about anything a person can imagine. So last night it was about relationships, tonight it's the notion that I am graduating college in 3.5 months is sinking in. I am going to need to get a job, and it freaks me out when I ( Read more... )

umm how normal is going to bed at 730 am in the morning....and waking up at 4pm. Not very. So instead of goin to grab breakfast or even lunch....I just woke up and need to go pick up dinner. My life is so un natural.

Im not the picket fence type nor am I the golf course type...he is ( Read more... )

I'm ready to feel again. It's true. I do ( Read more... )

2005 In The Beginning ( Read more... )

Its either I don't sleep at all, or I can't get my ass out of bed before 3pm. Its insane, I think its cause I've been working out alot and not eating any protien. I watched a peta video and grossed myself out so protien hasnt been my top priority lately. Anyways that was more of a note to myself ( Read more... )

So I figure I am usless being in Boulder. I've done nothing but sleep my days away. Exhaustion from winter break I guess. I need a vacation from my vacation if that makes any sense at all.

So I am a little bummed since of all the chaos that happened before I left Boulder, i.e my apartment mishaps that there is so much to do that I can't visit my ( Read more... )

It's 2006, and for the first time I had the sanity to not make stupid New Years resolutions. Instead people should set goals for themselves year round. Why limit it to just setting ridiculous ones on just one day of the year which for the most part rarely ever gets achieved. So a big EFF to New Years Resolutions on the real. I am back in Boulder, ( Read more... )

I feel like for the last few years its been like a struggle to post in this little "live" journal of mine. Sadly, I think it is because of the damn myspace addiction. Whateves. I am going to try to keep some record of my mental insanity...even if it is for the world to see. Plus my dad got me this sick new lap top that I just have to use whenever I ( Read more... )